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[Spin0620]

I googled how to hang yourself and got this forum. I felt alone. I've tried many times to kill myself but failed every time. Most were overdose but one was taking a bunch of ativan and putting a plastic bag over my head but my sister ruined that. I've spent so much time in psychiatric hospitals. So I decided next time to try hanging myself. Found this forum and it's nice to know I'm not alone. I've beaten a lot of physical illnesses from hep c to diabetes and blocked intestines. I just can't beat this bipolar and depression. I just want to be happy. I'm tired of living with this pain. I sabotage all my relationships. I'm alone now. I hate this mental illness!

 

[Mogley26]

I googled how to hang yourself and got this forum. I felt alone. I've tried many times to kill myself but failed every time. Most were overdose but one was taking a bunch of ativan and putting a plastic bag over my head but my sister ruined that. I've spent so much time in psychiatric hospitals. So I decided next time to try hanging myself. Found this forum and it's nice to know I'm not alone. I've beaten a lot of physical illnesses from hep c to diabetes and blocked intestines. I just can't beat this bipolar and depression. I just want to be happy. I'm tired of living with this pain. I sabotage all my relationships. I'm alone now. I hate this mental illness!

Thank you for sharing. Bipolar has fucked up my life to the extreme. If you're interested in getting better I can share or if you just want to end it there is a lot of info about hanging here.

 

[Fadingfast]

Thank you for sharing. Bipolar has fucked up my life to the extreme. If you're interested in getting better I can share or if you just want to end it there is a lot of info about hanging here.

I'd like to read a success story of getting well...I have Schizoaffective and Bipolar 1. I'm seeing a psychiatrist but all these meds seem to make it worse. I drank a bunch of rum with my zoloft yesterday and apparently that can do the trick? Serotonin Syndrome? I had no idea what I had done until I started feeling worse than usual.

 

[PTSDream]

Thank you for sharing. Bipolar has fucked up my life to the extreme. If you're interested in getting better I can share or if you just want to end it there is a lot of info about hanging here.

How can it get better? I'm plagued with past memories of abuse + bi-polar 2. Now they think I have DID I just can't do this shit anymore.

 

[Mogley26]

I'd like to read a success story of getting well...I have Schizoaffective and Bipolar 1. I'm seeing a psychiatrist but all these meds seem to make it worse. I drank a bunch of rum with my zoloft yesterday and apparently that can do the trick? Serotonin Syndrome? I had no idea what I had done until I started feeling worse than usual.

Doctoryourself.com
Niacin and vitamin c therapy, veggie fruit smoothies, positive affirmations and lots of other things. Psychotropics mess me up worse. Because of Psychotropics my life is now unmanageable and I wish to ctb.

How can it get better? I'm plagued with past memories of abuse + bi-polar 2. Now they think I have DID I just can't do this shit anymore.

I posted a response to your question above in another response. I'm done too. I wish you the best.

 

[Spin0620]

Don't get me wrong I'd love to get better, but it hasn't happened yet and I'm 50. I just feel like I'm suffering

Thank you for sharing. Bipolar has fucked up my life to the extreme. If you're interested in getting better I can share or if you just want to end it there is a lot of info about hanging here.

Don't get me wrong I'd love to get better, but it hasn't happened yet and I'm 50. I just feel like I'm suffering

 

[Mogley26]

Don't get me wrong I'd love to get better, but it hasn't happened yet and I'm 50. I just feel like I'm suffering

Don't get me wrong I'd love to get better, but it hasn't happened yet and I'm 50. I just feel like I'm suffering

I wish you the best with whatever you choose. For me I do hope I can ctb soon.

 

[Spin0620]

I wish you the best with whatever you choose. For me I do hope I can ctb soon.

ctb?

 

[JadedGray]

ctb?

Catch the bus: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/acronyms-on-here-for-new-users.6031/

 

[Spin0620]

Catch the bus: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/acronyms-on-here-for-new-users.6031/

Thank you

 

[JadedGray]

Thank you

You're welcome. I think that thread should be made easier to find.

 

[Whatshername]

Welcome, sorry to hear about your suffering. I hope you find what you need in this community, whatever you may decide.

 

[PTSDream]

Doctoryourself.com
Niacin and vitamin c therapy, veggie fruit smoothies, positive affirmations and lots of other things. Psychotropics mess me up worse. Because of Psychotropics my life is now unmanageable and I wish to ctb.

I posted a response to your question above in another response. I'm done too. I wish you the best.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way too, no one deserves this.

 

[Lara Francis]

I googled how to hang yourself and got this forum. I felt alone. I've tried many times to kill myself but failed every time. Most were overdose but one was taking a bunch of ativan and putting a plastic bag over my head but my sister ruined that. I've spent so much time in psychiatric hospitals. So I decided next time to try hanging myself. Found this forum and it's nice to know I'm not alone. I've beaten a lot of physical illnesses from hep c to diabetes and blocked intestines. I just can't beat this bipolar and depression. I just want to be happy. I'm tired of living with this pain. I sabotage all my relationships. I'm alone now. I hate this mental illness!

Hi.
I am sorry to hear your suffering and pain.
Welcome to the forum.we are a great community and hope you find the answers and peace you seek.