New but old

[complex]

New to site but old in age and to the suicide dream. I have failed a total of three proper attempts and now know why after informing myself through this site. Wish had found this site sooner.
I am of no fit to this world and HATE consumes me and probably those around me have HATE towards me. I have been sooo poorly for last few years and now just need to source SN, which i respect no one here will lead me to as am new. Its a method i KNOW i can do where as hanging or such like i struggle to feel i would carry out. U see even my get out has to be 'easy'!!! My friend did it with the meds used to put animals down as she was a vet i wish i had such access.
Anyways my story is of self hate and me bringing nothing but toxicity to the world around me, but i also care and am kind and thats why i must leave this world as the toxicity and hate now is too much and am ashamed

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish I had access to such a painless way to die, I hope that you find peace from the suffering.

 

[complex]

I also wish I had access to such a painless way to die, I hope that you find peace from the suffering.

Yeah so do i as now my pain has brought others pain as in a total pain in their side i have NOTHING left to stay breathing for. But may have to try the less confirmed way of OD as cannot hold out for trust and like said not techy so can't figure how to source on line.
I hope you to find your peace be that in this world or not xxxx

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Just "DIY" with the Yandex search engine lol.

 

[complex]

Just "DIY" with the Yandex search engine lol.

Yandex?? Ok will take a try lol seriously painting a thick image of myself here lol but just not good at this search stuff . Thank you

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yandex?? Ok will take a try lol seriously painting a thick image of myself here lol but just not good at this search stuff . Thank you

You'll need to go into the settings of Y (Yandex) and turn off filtering first. And "DIY" WASN'T directed at you, per say.