franklyUPSET1010
Gigi
- Nov 24, 2025
- 5
I'm 21f and so far suixidal since 16, and I'd never thought I'd live this long, but here we here…
I'm here to be with rational people since I hate majority of people and I hate the world since I lost my inner spark, but what gets me the most that it will never make sense or fix itself and people have to deal with that themselves, knowing justice is never sought.
I am an inner peace maker and so far know that I am nihilistic after I decided to not have any children in a world full of despair and misery.
I won't allow for a child to endure that under any conditions, yet I know the people in my life means the absolute world to me and have always treasured life while devaluing the reality of life in all aspects from pain and suffering and how humans hurt each other.
I love my family, friends, and support system that keeps me going, but I know I can never do enough for them and it's why I'm here, as a person tired and drained from the reality of an economic chamber breaking itself down and from people succumbing to that reality who worked so endlessly.
My story is simple.
Either robbed of life or either face it.
I've done both and I've succeeded, but it's unfair…
It's unfair because bad things and bad systems such as misogyny and corruption and racism happens each day under the influence of narcissistic people who care for themselves and no one else.
I'm here to be both strong and vulnerable with you guys making it through each day, since we all are so weak as humans, and it's so easy to break.
I'm autistic too, and yet so far, I've gone each day for myself, yet I know it's not enough, and I'm tired with all this shit and abuse.
It will never fix the trauma I experienced even though I worked so hard and am self sufficient enough to have conquered my own emotions through reestablishing myself.
That's the world we live in; a world that deems us unfit and it's why I AM HERE.
For when I'm ready, I will see when it's the perfect time for me.
I'm here to be with rational people since I hate majority of people and I hate the world since I lost my inner spark, but what gets me the most that it will never make sense or fix itself and people have to deal with that themselves, knowing justice is never sought.
I am an inner peace maker and so far know that I am nihilistic after I decided to not have any children in a world full of despair and misery.
I won't allow for a child to endure that under any conditions, yet I know the people in my life means the absolute world to me and have always treasured life while devaluing the reality of life in all aspects from pain and suffering and how humans hurt each other.
I love my family, friends, and support system that keeps me going, but I know I can never do enough for them and it's why I'm here, as a person tired and drained from the reality of an economic chamber breaking itself down and from people succumbing to that reality who worked so endlessly.
My story is simple.
Either robbed of life or either face it.
I've done both and I've succeeded, but it's unfair…
It's unfair because bad things and bad systems such as misogyny and corruption and racism happens each day under the influence of narcissistic people who care for themselves and no one else.
I'm here to be both strong and vulnerable with you guys making it through each day, since we all are so weak as humans, and it's so easy to break.
I'm autistic too, and yet so far, I've gone each day for myself, yet I know it's not enough, and I'm tired with all this shit and abuse.
It will never fix the trauma I experienced even though I worked so hard and am self sufficient enough to have conquered my own emotions through reestablishing myself.
That's the world we live in; a world that deems us unfit and it's why I AM HERE.
For when I'm ready, I will see when it's the perfect time for me.
