FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I've never wished to exist and never could do, no matter what I could never see something as cruel, futile and repulsive as existence as desirable. Existence itself truly is just a hellish abomination, it's tragic how it exists, it's a tragedy to me how there isn't just peaceful, perfect non-existence for all eternity.
No matter what I could never understand why anyone would wish for existence, in fact it disgusts and horrifies me how humans continue to so cruelly impose it on others when nobody can be harmed by the absence of everything, only never existing is perfection to me. I see nothing appealing about the torturous and meaningless burden of existing of a human, the thought of being trapped in this existence for decades on end terrifies me.
I'd always prefer to not exist, I always prefer the sound of peacefully not existing than having the ability to feel endless pain and agony in an existence there was never a need for in the first place. To exist as a human is something so incredibly harmful in fact existence causes nothing but harm and suffering and I'd prefer to avoid all suffering no matter what, no matter what I'd see it as better that this existence peacefully and permanently disappears into nothingness. I see suicide as suffering prevention and the way to find safety from suffering which is why I really envy those who managed to cease existing on their own terms, only those who no longer exist are fortunate to me.
No matter what I could never understand why anyone would wish for existence, in fact it disgusts and horrifies me how humans continue to so cruelly impose it on others when nobody can be harmed by the absence of everything, only never existing is perfection to me. I see nothing appealing about the torturous and meaningless burden of existing of a human, the thought of being trapped in this existence for decades on end terrifies me.
I'd always prefer to not exist, I always prefer the sound of peacefully not existing than having the ability to feel endless pain and agony in an existence there was never a need for in the first place. To exist as a human is something so incredibly harmful in fact existence causes nothing but harm and suffering and I'd prefer to avoid all suffering no matter what, no matter what I'd see it as better that this existence peacefully and permanently disappears into nothingness. I see suicide as suffering prevention and the way to find safety from suffering which is why I really envy those who managed to cease existing on their own terms, only those who no longer exist are fortunate to me.
