Joey
Enlightened
- Jun 14, 2020
- 1,432
Moving on from this final phase of life and it's sad that I've never found on what I wanted. I'm really happy for being brought into this world and seeing the things that I've wanted to see. I just wish this whole pandemic didn't happen because it would mean that I could find a way better job than where I am right now.
I never really did find my place and I was too much of a coward. Always living up to people's expectations and having them hold my hand and not even my own. This life is only going to continue to grow much harder as you get older and seeing the future the way it is, it's pretty dark and bleak. I don't want to slave away for stupid currency anymore and I know it's the way it is but life is too short.
Seeing people growing really old just terrifies the shit out of me and I don't want that to ever happen. I wish assisted suicide was legal on where I live and it can be for any reason for people who don't want to participate in this life anymore. Germany is now doing it and the only stupid reason America can't do it unless you have a terminal illness.
Maybe I really don't want to die but just don't want to face reality. I'm too afraid of the unknown and knowing myself, I hate people. Not a lot but working in retail, yeah I see them all.
I'm debating if I should just wait for a few more years till I'm 30 and see how things are from then and if it doesn't work out, I can leave. Or is it okay to leave now by the end of this year?
Please help...
I never really did find my place and I was too much of a coward. Always living up to people's expectations and having them hold my hand and not even my own. This life is only going to continue to grow much harder as you get older and seeing the future the way it is, it's pretty dark and bleak. I don't want to slave away for stupid currency anymore and I know it's the way it is but life is too short.
Seeing people growing really old just terrifies the shit out of me and I don't want that to ever happen. I wish assisted suicide was legal on where I live and it can be for any reason for people who don't want to participate in this life anymore. Germany is now doing it and the only stupid reason America can't do it unless you have a terminal illness.
Maybe I really don't want to die but just don't want to face reality. I'm too afraid of the unknown and knowing myself, I hate people. Not a lot but working in retail, yeah I see them all.
I'm debating if I should just wait for a few more years till I'm 30 and see how things are from then and if it doesn't work out, I can leave. Or is it okay to leave now by the end of this year?
Please help...