DeadD
King Idiot
- Mar 28, 2019
- 46
I'm in the middle of a nervous break down. For days. No matter what I do, I can't calm down. I just go through periods of quiet vibration until I boil over into literal hysterics. My girlfriend asks me of lashing out at her makes me feel better after I expressed that I hate my life. She also said my life doesn't seem so terrible through her eyes. It's so easy for people who aren't trapped in a broken disabled body to say that. Mid nervous breakdown, she expresses how disappointing my actions are to her. Que the rejection dysphoria. I'm now screaming at the top of my lungs for her to go away. I can't take anymore. I can't take anymore negative speculations on my behavior. I can't control myself and the harder I try the worse it gets. I fucking hate myself.
I'm not trying to lash out. I'm over the edge and I've lost control. I don't know how to get that control back. I just want it to stop
I'm not trying to lash out. I'm over the edge and I've lost control. I don't know how to get that control back. I just want it to stop
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