needing questionable stuff to keep living

[kitbarks]

one thing that makes me consider that suicide is the only option is the fact that to keep living i need some things that although are not ilegal, are at minimal questioable, not from some moral ground of stuff like that. but because these are things that i kind of despise, although i need them to survive, like hentai,porn,alcohol,cigarettes. the worst really is porn/hentai. i tried to quit so many times,but everytime i tried to do it, i get kinda fucked up, my emotional state gets all over the place,i feel like killing myself even more if i dont do it, and some of the stuff that i see...lets just say that if you were to be my friend in real life, you would not be anymore after you saw what kind of stuff gets me off, i would seriously kill myself if my family discovered what kind of stuff i see, i just feel like its not worth living if the things that makes you go on, are things like this.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

one thing that makes me consider that suicide is the only option is the fact that to keep living i need some things that although are not ilegal, are at minimal questioable, not from some moral ground of stuff like that. but because these are things that i kind of despise, although i need them to survive, like hentai,porn,alcohol,cigarettes. the worst really is porn/hentai. i tried to quit so many times,but everytime i tried to do it, i get kinda fucked up, my emotional state gets all over the place,i feel like killing myself even more if i dont do it, and some of the stuff that i see...lets just say that if you were to be my friend in real life, you would not be anymore after you saw what kind of stuff gets me off, i would seriously kill myself if my family discovered what kind of stuff i see, i just feel like its not worth living if the things that makes you go on, are things like this.

If it isn't hurting anyone else, I don't see the problem with it.

 

[kitbarks]

If it isn't hurting anyone else, I don't see the problem with it.

i just feel like my life is literally hanging by a thread, if i dont get any money to buy these stuff,its over, worst thing is i am unemployed.

 

[Aries]

i just feel like my life is literally hanging by a thread, if i dont get any money to buy these stuff,its over, worst thing is i am unemployed.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

if i dont get any money to buy these stuff,its over, worst thing is i am unemployed.

Well, you didn't say that anywhere in your OP. You only talked about how your friends and family would feel if they knew you were into that sort of thing. I still stand by what I said in that if it isn't hurting anyone else, I don't see a problem with it. If it's hurting you, that's a different issue.