I recently tried to kill myself with carbon monoxide. The dose should have been deadly, unfortunately I survived and woke up after two hours. It was awful to wake up and to know that my attempt was in vain and the pain will go on. When I became unconscious, everything became black. I did not dream anything. It was like I did not exist anymore. My brain did not get enough oxygen during the time so when I woke up, I had a lot of brain damage. But this experience did not scare me, it had something touching. Otherwise, when I sleep, I notice how my brain works and tortures itself. In the two hours, everything was gone, but I do not wish anyone this condition. Life can be so beautiful, unfortunately it is not for each of us.