NDE stories?

[DesperateOne]

I just came across this Reddit post where a guy died due to some brain issues, but got brought back to life. He reported that he felt death to be so peaceful that he didn't want to return back to the world of the living.

People in the comments reported similar stories. One person drowned, another got shot and all of them reported the most blissful experiences. No panic or SI, just pure peace.

Does anyone here have any experiences with this? I wonder why we feel the SI, but not them?

 

[hikikomorizombie]

we are trying to kill ourselves vs an external force doing it to them. there are many ppl on SaSu who wish they would just be shot in a robbery @ work or something of the sort, or that they could hire a hitman.

humans have a primal self preservation instinct that we are actively working against when trying to commit suicide. those people are just surrendering themselves to what's already happened to them.

 

[DesperateOne]

we are trying to kill ourselves vs an external force doing it to them. there are many ppl on SaSu who wish they would just be shot in a robbery @ work or something of the sort, or that they could hire a hitman.

humans have a primal self preservation instinct that we are actively working against when trying to commit suicide. those people are just surrendering themselves to what's already happened to them.

I hope you don't mind me asking this, but what does SI feel like for you?

 

[penguinl0v3s]

Wow, that's profound. It makes me kind of want to die, but I'd be disappointed if there really is no afterlife.

i'm new here but i'm guessing SI=Suicidal Ideation?? if so, i don't really have that anymore. my head used to be filled w constant thoughts abt needing to kms & how i was going to, but now it's just become a logical + indisputable fact. living isn't an option for me, so now i just have to die :) i hope that was coherent.

SI is survival instinct

 

[hikikomorizombie]

I hope you don't mind me asking this, but what does SI feel like for you?

sorry for my other reply, idk what SI was & guessed wrong, lol. ofc i don't mind!!! :)

for me it feels like a physical barrier i can't get myself past. like uneasiness & shakiness & weak knees/legs. some nausea too. what about you?

 

[DesperateOne]

sorry for my other reply, idk what SI was & guessed wrong, lol.

for me it feels like a physical barrier i can't get myself past. like uneasiness & shakiness & weak knees/legs. some nausea too. what about you?

Extreme anxiety and panic attacks that I can't explain. Just the feeling of not existing anymore is horrifying and it's unlike anything that I've experienced, but when I think of what this life holds for me I get severe anxiety for that as well and feel trapped. The only way for it to stop is to distract myself.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

Extreme anxiety and panic attacks that I can't explain. Just the feeling of not existing anymore is horrifying and it's unlike anything that I've experienced, but when I think of what this life holds for me I get severe anxiety for that as well and feel trapped. The only way for it to stop is to distract myself.

damn. i'm really sorry u don't have an out, even in death :// i used to be worried i'd never be able to get over my fear of oblivion, but things have finally gotten so bad that i actually welcome it now.

obv i'm not hoping for things to get so miserable for u that u join me in feeling that way, lol<3 hopefully it'll be the opposite.

 

[DesperateOne]

damn. i'm really sorry u don't have an out, even in death :// i used to be worried i'd never be able to get over my fear of oblivion, but things have finally gotten so bad that i actually welcome it now.

obv i'm not hoping for things to get so miserable for u that u join me in feeling that way, lol<3 hopefully it'll be the opposite.

I've been a screen addicted hikikomori for most of my life. There is no way of getting better, my life is just a wave of darkness/isolation imposed by myself and shit parents. I'm a hollow person and never had any genuiene connections. I just need to muster up the courage and do this.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

I've been a screen addicted hikikomori for most of my life.

omg! a fellow hikikomori :) it's been 2 months since i left my house, except for groceries or aimless drives. what abt u?

https://doenetwork.org/cases/3832umla.html here's a link to the suicide note of a John Doe that'll 4ever resonate w me. u might've seen it before. he verbalized everything i've always felt but could never put into words (except for the loving parents part lol). reading it played a big part in my acceptance of the nothingness waiting after death.

 

[DesperateOne]

omg! a fellow hikikomori :) it's been 2 months since i left my house, except for groceries or aimless drives. what abt u?

https://doenetwork.org/cases/3832umla.html here's a link to the suicide note of a John Doe that'll 4ever resonate w me. u might've seen it before. he verbalized everything i've always felt but could never put into words (except for the loving parents part lol). reading it played a big part in my acceptance of the nothingness waiting after death.

I never did develop into a real person and I cannot tolerate the false and empty existence I have created. When you stop growing you are dead.

This is the definition of my life. I stopped growing in fucking elementary school due to me isolating myself more and more and getting absorbed by the screens.

The sad thing is that I never really had the chance. Parents who are suppose to notice this and help never really did. The only thing they did was telling me to stop spending so much time alone staring at a screen meanwhile they kept buying me gadgets and things to stare at.

Overall it feels like I was doomed the moment I was born. I do resonate with him on the defusing bomb part as well. If I do not CTB all the stuff that has been collecting under my psyche for years will burst out and I will end up in a mental health ward where I'll be literally trapped in mental anguish and filled with pills every day.

Fuck that shit. I need to muster up the courage to end it on my own terms...

 

[hikikomorizombie]

The sad thing is that I never really had the chance. Parents who are suppose to notice this and help never really did. The only thing they did was telling me to stop but kept buying me gadgets and things to stare at.

omg same!!! i only have my mom, but when i finally got my 1st diagnosis at 15 she legit told me, "Yeah I've always known u had depression.' like h u h???? then why did u not intervene & get me help from the beginning?

adults seem to think just telling you something is enough on their part. nvm the fact they never actually bothered to step-in in any meaningful way & help guide u through growing up/life, like they're supposed to.