trynacbt
Arcanist
- Sep 28, 2019
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I'm able to acquire the materials to do either N or SN.
I could also do both (SN, then if that fails, N), but there's a risk of my family members impeding me from trying again if SN were to fail.
Here's my situation...
N
pros:
as we know, it's very reliable
I'd be at a hotel, so my family would probably never see my body if I were to leave a note asking to be cremated
close to no chance of interruption/being discovered
because I'd be away from family, it would be easy to stop taking my medications and do the meto regimen
peaceful
cons:
I'd have to travel and pick up the N at a post office--risk of being caught/something going wrong/authorities--this scares me quite a bit
added effort of making travel plans, getting a hotel, and keeping up appearances with my family that I am visiting someone--but I can thankfully afford it and who needs $ where we're going?
so mainly the con is that it's illegal and I'm pretty prone to paranoia so I would probably experience quite a bit of anxiety leading up to it
SN
pros:
the materials are very accessible to me given where I live
I'd be at home in a comfortable place
cons:
possibility of discovery/interruption
not sure how reliable/peaceful this is? (this one is debatable)
my family would have to see me after the fact
stopping my medications for the meto regimen would be trickier
I don't know how helpful it is to post all this here but I've been juggling these methods back and forth in my mind all day and some feedback would be helpful. Thank you all~
I could also do both (SN, then if that fails, N), but there's a risk of my family members impeding me from trying again if SN were to fail.
Here's my situation...
N
pros:
as we know, it's very reliable
I'd be at a hotel, so my family would probably never see my body if I were to leave a note asking to be cremated
close to no chance of interruption/being discovered
because I'd be away from family, it would be easy to stop taking my medications and do the meto regimen
peaceful
cons:
I'd have to travel and pick up the N at a post office--risk of being caught/something going wrong/authorities--this scares me quite a bit
added effort of making travel plans, getting a hotel, and keeping up appearances with my family that I am visiting someone--but I can thankfully afford it and who needs $ where we're going?
so mainly the con is that it's illegal and I'm pretty prone to paranoia so I would probably experience quite a bit of anxiety leading up to it
SN
pros:
the materials are very accessible to me given where I live
I'd be at home in a comfortable place
cons:
possibility of discovery/interruption
not sure how reliable/peaceful this is? (this one is debatable)
my family would have to see me after the fact
stopping my medications for the meto regimen would be trickier
I don't know how helpful it is to post all this here but I've been juggling these methods back and forth in my mind all day and some feedback would be helpful. Thank you all~