My worst day yet

[Jengator]

I am so sick and in so much pain. My whole body hurts. I'm dying slowly. I have SN and meto but I don't know if my weakened system can handle the meto. My mold and mercury poisoning is killing me. Feeling helpless

 

[Nem]

I am so sick and in so much pain. My whole body hurts. I'm dying slowly. I have SN and meto but I don't know if my weakened system can handle the meto. My mold and mercury poisoning is killing me. Feeling helpless

I feel the same and I'm sorry to hear that
peace/hugs

 

[Jengator]

Same here

 

[morningdew]

I know the feeling. I hope you feel better tomorrow.

 

[Jengator]

Thank you. It's a horrible feeling to not have options.

 

[morningdew]

Thank you. It's a horrible feeling to not have options.

I too suffer from some things you can't "fight". Some days I just shut down.Some days I find a little life.

 

[Bluefish]

I too suffer from some things you can't "fight". Some days I just shut down.Some days I find a little life.

Me too. I wish you strength. And very sorry to OP. Some people just dont have good options left. Wish you could feel even a little more bearable soon.

 

[Jengator]

Thank you. Same with you.

Me too. I wish you strength. And very sorry to OP. Some people just dont have good options left. Wish you could feel even a little more bearable soon.

I hope it gets better for you too

 

[Hunter100]

I am so sick and in so much pain. My whole body hurts. I'm dying slowly. I have SN and meto but I don't know if my weakened system can handle the meto. My mold and mercury poisoning is killing me. Feeling helpless

This sounds absolutely terrible. I truly am so sorry and frustrated that there is nothing that I can do when I know people are hurting like this. Life fucking sucks for some of us. I don't know your story but I have never known anyone with mercury and/or mold poisoning. Is there a post that you made explaining this in detail? I would like to understand better.

 

[CaptainT]

Sympathies @Jengator, yesterday I got a brief glimpse of the storm clouds passing but today plunged into deep dark hole again. Shit day indeed. Hope you pull upwards tomorrow

 

[JimFord99]

I am so sick and in so much pain. My whole body hurts. I'm dying slowly. I have SN and meto but I don't know if my weakened system can handle the meto. My mold and mercury poisoning is killing me. Feeling helpless

Can I ask why you have mercury poisoning? Sorry, it just seems odd to me to have it.

 

[Jengator]

We all have it to some degree. Some worse than others. Some don't even know they have it and causes a lot of problems like bi-polar etc. it comes from dental, vaccines, tuna etc.
I was poisoned by Cipro first. In attempting to detox my body I did something called improper heavy metals chelation which overloaded my system, shut down my digestion and poisoned my organs knocking out my immune system. Infections have set in and my body can't detox things like mold and fungus that are in the air we breathe. It's horrible.

 

[JimFord99]

We all have it to some degree. Some worse than others. Some don't even know they have it and causes a lot of problems like bi-polar etc. it comes from dental, vaccines, tuna etc.
I was poisoned by Cipro first. In attempting to detox my body I did something called improper heavy metals chelation which overloaded my system, shut down my digestion and poisoned my organs knocking out my immune system. Infections have set in and my body can't detox things like mold and fungus that are in the air we breathe. It's horrible.

Thanks, Jengator, learned something new. I bet this is horrible.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Horrible situation. Wish I could help more.

 

[mediocre]

I feel your pain I'm in agony daily and I don't have any answers yet to what's wrong with me. I have pain all over and constantly feel sick. The worst part is that nobody cares or wants to help. You go to try and get help from doctors and they maybe do a couple of tests and if nothing shows up you're dismissed or they tell you it's your anxiety. Another thing is that the healthcare system is shit.

Do they give you anything for the pain? I get absolutely nothing..

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I feel your pain I'm in agony daily and I don't have any answers yet to what's wrong with me. I have pain all over and constantly feel sick. The worst part is that nobody cares or wants to help. You go to try and get help from doctors and they maybe do a couple of tests and if nothing shows up you're dismissed or they tell you it's your anxiety. Another thing is that the healthcare system is shit.

Do they give you anything for the pain? I get absolutely nothing..

You see TV dramas about doctors. They run tests on patients and dramatically struggle to diagnose, relentlessly coming up with more out of the box ideas until the patient is helped.

Yeah right. Blood tests. Scans. Negative results. It must be psychological. Discharged.

 

[Meant2Die]

Jengator, I know exactly what you are talking about. I have chronic Lyme, 15+ years plus, only 2 years in treatment, mold tests came up positive, I also found it in my bedroom , Lots of it in corners and a window after last winter. It's also in our basement. Cleaned it with bleach, but not professionally which isn't enough. Can't move out of the house though. My docs only treatment costs $700 per week out of pocket for IV vitamin c plus other nutrients. Can't afford it. I have heavy metal posing as well, have been doing proper chelation (which is metal detox) with DMSA and EDTA for over a year, lead is still high. One of my highest metals, called thallium (no idea where I got it from) cost me $1500 per month out of pocket for the med to bring it down. My immune system is barely functioning, I'm on 2 intravenous antibiotics and one oral, that's the only way I can function and it's still very low functioning and almost constant physical and mental discomfort . My head is always spacy, my memory is terrible, I can't think easily at all,poor word recall, depression, insomnia, fatigue and weakness, severe arthritis of the jaw bone, joint paint. And I'm only in my mid 30s. Before my diagnosis they told me I had bipolar too, I was on 4 diff psych meds for a few years, didn't help. There's also other complications I have , that's just the start of it.

Despite all my treatments I'm not getting better. Over the summer, it was the worse, we switched up some meds ,I ended up being bed bound for weeks, couldn't move much, so tired, tingling all over, horrible discomfort, hard time breathing. I was getting low blood sugar which caused disorientation, weakness and feeling faint. My mother did everything for me, she had to otherwise I'd be dead. Made my food, fed me, showered me, washed my hair in the bathtub. Just to show how bad things are I have a bucket next to my bed to pee into every night for the last few years bc My bad insomnia wakes me up every hour and I have to pee, and getting up to walk to the bathroom is too hard.

After how bad this summer was I promised myself never again, that's why I know I have to cbt, I can't allow that kind of pain and discomfort to happen again. I'm on diff meds now, they help but I can't stay on them forever bc you have to rotate the antibiotics. Once I'm off them I'll slide down again like last time into pure hell.

I'm also worried about how my body will handle the meto as I'd really want to do the 48h method with SN vs the stat. I plan on testing it when it comes.

 

[JimFord99]

Jengator, I know exactly what you are talking about. I have chronic Lyme, 15+ years plus, only 2 years in treatment, mold tests came up positive, I also found it in my bedroom , Lots of it in corners and a window after last winter. It's also in our basement. Cleaned it with bleach, but not professionally which isn't enough. Can't move out of the house though. My docs only treatment costs $700 per week out of pocket for IV vitamin c plus other nutrients. Can't afford it. I have heavy metal posing as well, have been doing proper chelation (which is metal detox) with DMSA and EDTA for over a year, lead is still high. One of my highest metals, called thallium (no idea where I got it from) cost me $1500 per month out of pocket for the med to bring it down. My immune system is barely functioning, I'm on 2 intravenous antibiotics and one oral, that's the only way I can function and it's still very low functioning and almost constant physical and mental discomfort . My head is always spacy, my memory is terrible, I can't think easily at all,poor word recall, depression, insomnia, fatigue and weakness, severe arthritis of the jaw bone, joint paint. And I'm only in my mid 30s. Before my diagnosis they told me I had bipolar too, I was on 4 diff psych meds for a few years, didn't help. There's also other complications I have , that's just the start of it.

Despite all my treatments I'm not getting better. Over the summer, it was the worse, we switched up some meds ,I ended up being bed bound for weeks, couldn't move much, so tired, tingling all over, horrible discomfort, hard time breathing. I was getting low blood sugar which caused disorientation, weakness and feeling faint. My mother did everything for me, she had to otherwise I'd be dead. Made my food, fed me, showered me, washed my hair in the bathtub. Just to show how bad things are I have a bucket next to my bed to pee into every night for the last few years bc My bad insomnia wakes me up every hour and I have to pee, and getting up to walk to the bathroom is too hard.

After how bad this summer was I promised myself never again, that's why I know I have to cbt, I can't allow that kind of pain and discomfort to happen again. I'm on diff meds now, they help but I can't stay on them forever bc you have to rotate the antibiotics. Once I'm off them I'll slide down again like last time into pure hell.

I'm also worried about how my body will handle the meto as I'd really want to do the 48h method with SN vs the stat. I plan on testing it when it comes.

I feel so sorry for you

 

[Meant2Die]

@JimFord99 Thanks, but no need. I've looked back at my life and with each event it almost seemed like this had to happen. Like everything lead up to this moment exactly how it should even from the moment I was a child. I just wish I had more balls to hang myself bc that was my original plan. Now ive gotten on the SN train but it just feels like a distraction from what I should do, which is hang myself and just get it over with. Hanging seems so final to me vs the possibility of failure with Sn. But yes I know anything can fail, you can be found early etc.

 

[JimFord99]

For SN, a deserted location is recommended, for hangin, well, I have my doubts about this method, but, anyway, not being found is the key.

 

[Jengator]

I feel your pain I'm in agony daily and I don't have any answers yet to what's wrong with me. I have pain all over and constantly feel sick. The worst part is that nobody cares or wants to help. You go to try and get help from doctors and they maybe do a couple of tests and if nothing shows up you're dismissed or they tell you it's your anxiety. Another thing is that the healthcare system is shit.

Do they give you anything for the pain? I get absolutely nothing..

I would research amalgam (dental) illness and check for mold especially if you feel better outdoors. Traditional doctors will not recognize this. You'll have to do your own research and possibly get a Lyme doctor and alternative medicine doctor.