Venting My venting stream of consciousness

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OK guys, I'm kindda bad and I don't want to kill the chat again so I just guess I'll just say non sense stuff on my own instead on saying it on the chat. I just went down pretty quick, it'll pass. I took some Zopiclone again. I hope this was not a to big mistake. I can't go threw withdrawals again. "

Et nos amours, faut-il qu'il m'en souvienne ? La joie venait toujours après la peine.

True Apo but after happyness also comes pain and sadness. I mean how existence can be so predictive and at the same time so absurd ?
This is contreadictory stuff.

Doe the fact that our world is deterministic is all the point of it pointlessness ?
Maybe. Should I care ? Maybe not...

This is the new shit. Do we want it no ? Do we get it ? Yeah... Stand up and admit.

Je vis je meurs j'ai chaud estreme en endurant froidure
You're just fucking ngl.

Have you ever died before ? I think I did. I mean, I don't care what you think, I 'm wearing your cologne. I would kill you if I could.

There's point, there's day, where everything lux calm and beauty, but this doomed too end.

Ni temps passé ni les amours revienne.
Sous le pont Mirabeau coule la seine.

I'm lost as usual , in my mind, in my head but no I'm not waiting for your fucking dreams to be shared but mine to be ruined. This is just a point of view.

Spoiler: Suicide social

Yeah good point man, but you're just encoraging hatred against the world instead of highlighting what is fucking awesome in this world.
Fairwell those embittered suckers who decided to make shitty rap so that every hurting assholes feels bad
Shush my badby don't you cry.
Beter places exist :

Spoiler: Sleep

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7u38Lv3Ra8

It is safe to sleep alone in a placeno one knows.
Just go and sleep tight my dear sweet child, the world will be better tomorrow.
I love you and I care about you you little imperfect miniature human.
I won't leave you.
I'm collapsing into tears.
I'm gonna take some Loxapac I think
Loxapine taken
What should I do now ?
I was made to love you. What went wrong fellow humans ?
Les sanglots longs des violons de l'automne
Bercent mon cœur d'une langueur monotone.
You ! Yess You ! Stand still laddy !
I'm fucking coming to insert happiness right in the center of your brain.
Blast ears again and again and again

Spoiler: Again and again

How can you have any pudding if you don't eat your meat ?
Well I actually don't want no puddin nor meat
Now I want some raw meat and some raw blood. I want to drink your blood "purer than the purest drug".

Spoiler: raw meet and pure blood

I wanna be at peace with my brain, this sucker is too loud
Why can't it just shut the fuck up

 

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I'm getting tired again even though I woke like 2 hours ago. Thanks Z
My brain is slowly getting back to be numb.
Thank you to every body who read this.

 

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Holly fuck I don't remember having posted that stuff. Currently deliberating with myself on deleting it.
Hmmm I decided I will leave it on for the next time I am delusional, next episode soon . Love you all !

 

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And here the new episode of the venting dissociating post. Do we want it ? No and no and no, I just should bag my pack and go away. This is of littl e interest people wouldn't actually care about what's going on with a boring brain
I'm fucking tired
Can you stop whining you litle swinney swine windy wine petty pine puky pikes pawny peas.
This stuff shout hit harder.
Def
Deaf ? No
Harder than you get if you get some.
Paris is awake. I can hear the traffic.
I'm half awake half conscious is ther an I I said stfu IAr you deaf ? Maybe blind binge watch blindness in my ears.
You think she's scared of you ? She's wearing your cologne you know.
I [don't] wanna end me.
Billie why do you fucking get into my brain
It's not like if I was using any stuff
Just insomnia

Who are you little green peas ? Where areyou going stfu
Boring
Boring to death
Just try to lay down and stop being dramatic.
I don't care what you think I'm actually wearing YOUR cologne.
Stop shouting you pityful smartas, I will crush you if you don't stfu.
I'm fkin tired. I need to sleep.
Should I take some Loxapine AGAIN ?
I said stop shouting caughing cow or I fkin put you in a coffin and coffee won't wake you smart ass.
Pityfull little thing.
Let's go for half Loxapine maybe I'll sleep with that.
I just hope this loxapine kicksin pretty quickly cauz actually there's notthin beyond anything

I can bearly see.
I can bearly understand external stimuli
I'm just deep into myself saying shit
I hope I won't regret venting here.
Where will my stream of consciousness go when it's all over.
Where are the streams when they arrive into so many water
Tiny little streams
I'm so tired.
I'm alone.
I should stfu
I annoy people with that stuff.
Stop saying you're annoying that's fucking annoying
I'm in a trance right now.
I can't stop writting. Again.
Hehe just close your eyes you silly I told you how to type eyes closed this is for a reason
I shoulld be blind
why am so obsessed with blindnedd
Yall should listen to that dope mix :

Wrong link



Just top clicking every where like a dumb ass.
Should I take the second half of the loxapine ?
I have to help my sister tomorrow.
She is so important,
I have to help her, she's in deep shit.
My poor sestra
sestra, I have to wake up for you.
I'm feeling bad now.
Trance is over.
I should stfu.
I should add that stuff to my post on SS.
Let's do that.