Neon Grave
AuDHD, trying my best.
- Apr 6, 2023
- 42
I've been attempting therapy over the last month or so due to current circumstances not allowing me to CTB. I figured that if I'm going to be stuck here waiting to die anyway, I might as well make the effort to see if I can make things "better" in the meantime.
I thought I was doing okay with this therapist. He wasn't particularly helpful in terms of developing coping skills or resolving issues, but it was alright to just be able to tell someone about all the shit I've been through in my life, some of which include physical and psychological abuse from childhood. He specializes in trauma, allegedly.
So color me shocked when he suggested I be referred to another therapist because, for some reason, he felt the need to reiterate that he "specializes in trauma," and apparently attributes all of my problems to being autistic. How the fuck does me being hit and screamed at from the ages of 8 to 16 have anything to do with my autism???
Even now it feels like he was trying to tell me that my trauma is so insignificant that he doesn't find it worth his time to work with me. I'm frustrated and angry because I KNOW that mental health care is fucked, but I feel stupid for even wasting the time and money trying only to be turned away because this guy is scared of working with a neurodivergent person.
I thought I was doing okay with this therapist. He wasn't particularly helpful in terms of developing coping skills or resolving issues, but it was alright to just be able to tell someone about all the shit I've been through in my life, some of which include physical and psychological abuse from childhood. He specializes in trauma, allegedly.
So color me shocked when he suggested I be referred to another therapist because, for some reason, he felt the need to reiterate that he "specializes in trauma," and apparently attributes all of my problems to being autistic. How the fuck does me being hit and screamed at from the ages of 8 to 16 have anything to do with my autism???
Even now it feels like he was trying to tell me that my trauma is so insignificant that he doesn't find it worth his time to work with me. I'm frustrated and angry because I KNOW that mental health care is fucked, but I feel stupid for even wasting the time and money trying only to be turned away because this guy is scared of working with a neurodivergent person.