Discussion My toxic trait is thinking SI wont kick in for me hahahaah

[obei]

I mean I prob will have SI kick in, my method is partial, but Idk why I still feel like ill be able to overcome it

 

[dinosavr]

Same!! I have never had an attempt so there's no way to tell how I'm going to feel, but somehow I'm sure it's going to be successful, with no SI at all.

 

[ctbcat]

i'm jst gonna try and get really high and hope that makes the little driver guy in my brain useless in the right way rather than the wrong way

 

[silent.desperation]

I've never had an attempt but I'd like to think that when I've made the monumental decision to CTB, nothing will stop me. It tends to be how my brain works. Having said that, I don't believe that I won't feel scared or sad at the time.

 

[twin size mattress]

Same here, although ive had SI kick in before im still convinced that next time will be different

 

[deadwalkid]

I'm 100% sure my SI will be swinging all its might to fight me when I ctb
My toxic trait is thinking I'm the one who decide

 

[Forever Sleep]

I feel like this too. It's like- surely I'll be able to out-think it... I expect I'm just deluding myself.

 

[FutureHanger]

Mine is wishing I could die painfully if SI wasn't an issue e.g. self immolation out of curiosity to see how it feels like.

 

[Judah]

The SI manifests itself in slow methods or that require preparation, such as partial. I'll keep that in mind next time I decide CTB.