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I have everything ready to go, I'm just waiting on one more thing at the moment. I'm really excited to be passing during my favorite time of the year too, May - June and on the verge of summer, when it is absolutely gorgeous where I live.
 
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So sorry to hear that. Hopefully everything goes well. Can you tell us which way u choosing?
 
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So sorry to hear that. Hopefully everything goes well. Can you tell us which way u choosing?
Thank you, it's just the unfortunate reality that all good things come to an end eventually in this life, and there's nothing we can do about that. I'll be going peacefully with N.
 
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What else are you waiting on?

I've wondered if there's a correlation to people's favorite time of year and their birthday because I enjoy winter - the cold, rain, snow, crisp air, scent of leaves, etc.
 
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What else are you waiting on?

I've wondered if there's a correlation to people's favorite time of year and their birthday because I enjoy winter - the cold, rain, snow, crisp air, scent of leaves, etc.
I'd rather not publicly disclose it :)

I'm not sure, I was born in December and always thought winter was rather depressing lol. I don't like how insanely cold it gets here and how it's constantly either grey or dark outside. I always loved fall though, I think it's beautiful and feel like it always jived with my energy nicely. Spring and newly summer will always have my heart though. I love everything it resembles, as far everything bursting with new life again. (I'm sure you can already assume why that'd be my favorite...haha).
 
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Wish you luck man
 
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I'm shooting for around the 1st to mid June most likely.
 
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Thank you, it's just the unfortunate reality that all good things come to an end eventually in this life, and there's nothing we can do about that. I'll be going peacefully with N.
Man, I hope you'll get peaceful journey! So sad that life got you to this point, where the only option is to ctb.. sending you hugs.

Anyway, I wanna be gone by monday, too, and I realized that I only can do it when I feel peace. Like, I'm not stressing, just feeling nothing. So hopefully nothing bad happens until I decide to leave.
 
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Man, I hope you'll get peaceful journey! So sad that life got you to this point, where the only option is to ctb.. sending you hugs.

Anyway, I wanna be gone by monday, too, and I realized that I only can do it when I feel peace. Like, I'm not stressing, just feeling nothing. So hopefully nothing bad happens until I decide to leave.
Yes I feel that is the best time to go through with it, when you are completely at peace with your decision and ready.
 
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Yes I feel that is the best time to go through with it, when you are completely at peace with your decision and ready.
But still. I would love if something good happens to you what would change your mind and you'd be just happy.. sad that reality isn't like that, tho.
 
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I have everything ready to go, I'm just waiting on one more thing at the moment. I'm really excited to be passing during my favorite time of the year too, May - June and on the verge of summer, when it is absolutely gorgeous where I live.
Wishing you peace and safe travels @Taylor x
 
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I have everything ready to go, I'm just waiting on one more thing at the moment. I'm really excited to be passing during my favorite time of the year too, May - June and on the verge of summer, when it is absolutely gorgeous where I live.

Wishing you the best. :hug: I hope you find peace . :hug: I'm hoping I will find the courage to CTB soon as well.
I will miss you. Someone else that likes Metalcore on here is awesome. It's not the only music I like but I love to listen to it in my car … LOUD !!! :happy:
Anyway … You will be missed.

:'(
Thank you, it's just the unfortunate reality that all good things come to an end eventually in this life, and there's nothing we can do about that. I'll be going peacefully with N.

I was just wondering of you are doing the 2 day method or the STAT method.
I'd rather not publicly disclose it :)

I'm not sure, I was born in December and always thought winter was rather depressing lol. I don't like how insanely cold it gets here and how it's constantly either grey or dark outside. I always loved fall though, I think it's beautiful and feel like it always jived with my energy nicely. Spring and newly summer will always have my heart though. I love everything it resembles, as far everything bursting with new life again. (I'm sure you can already assume why that'd be my favorite...haha).

My favorite time of year is fall … I thought I would be able to do it then but I was a coward. I do like Spring and early Summer as well.
I hate Winter !!! :angry: I hope to at least have the guts to do it before Winter comes this year.
 
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Taylor

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Wishing you the best. :hug: I hope you find peace . :hug: I'm hoping I will find the courage to CTB soon as well.
I will miss you. Someone else that likes Metalcore on here is awesome. It's not the only music I like but I love to listen to it in my car … LOUD !!! :happy:
Anyway … You will be missed.

:'(


I was just wondering of you are doing the 2 day method or the STAT method.


My favorite time of year is fall … I thought I would be able to do it then but I was a coward. I do like Spring and early Summer as well.
I hate Winter !!! :angry: I hope to at least have the guts to do it before Winter comes this year.
Thank you :) I'll be using the 2 day method coupled with a stat dose of Ondansetron.
But still. I would love if something good happens to you what would change your mind and you'd be just happy.. sad that reality isn't like that, tho.
Right I wish that it were that simple, I'm just having to face the reality that it's no longer possible for me.
 
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Thank you :) I'll be using the 2 day method coupled with a stat dose of Ondansetron.

Right I wish that it were that simple, I'm just having to face the reality that it's no longer possible for me.
I know exactly how you feel. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. But if you wanna talk, feel free to pm me. Also, kinda sucks that we know how you look like and imagining that this person wouldn't be here soon is heartbreaking. Fuck, I hate this fucking life. Why does everything have to be so fucking bad.
 
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Wishing you well and that everything goes as planned. Atleast you have reassurance with N, since it will more than likely be peaceful and a success.
 
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I know exactly how you feel. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. But if you wanna talk, feel free to pm me. Also, kinda sucks that we know how you look like and imagining that this person wouldn't be here soon is heartbreaking. Fuck, I hate this fucking life. Why does everything have to be so fucking bad.
I know :( that's why I choose to believe in God, because according to God's word it was never meant to be like this. We were never meant to suffer and He is coming to restore His good world.
Wishing you well and that everything goes as planned. Atleast you have reassurance with N, since it will more than likely be peaceful and a success.
Thanks! Yes you are absolutely right. It's been a long road and having the reassurance of a highly effective and peaceful passing is wonderful. I don't think I could trust or go through with any other method.
 
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I know :( that's why I choose to believe in God, because according to God's word it was never meant to be like this. We were never meant to suffer and He is coming to restore His good world.

Thanks! Yes you are absolutely right. It's been a long road and having the reassurance of a highly effective and peaceful passing is wonderful. I don't think I could trust or go through with any other method.
Well, I believe God will wait for you at the gates once it all stop and you'll be happy in heaven. I'm not religious but I believe your faith is strong for you and you'll get your peace.
 
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Safe travels, I hope you can find peace! I'm also ctb then
 
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Safe travels, I hope you can find peace! I'm also ctb then
Thank you, I hope you eventually find yours as well! I saw your post about partial hanging actually, I'm sorry it didn't work out. If I could I would gift a mass supply of N to everyone here, because no one deserves to mortally hurt themselves to escape their suffering.
 
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Anyway, I wanna be gone by monday, too, and I realized that I only can do it when I feel peace. Like, I'm not stressing, just feeling nothing. So hopefully nothing bad happens until I decide to leave.
I've had the same realization. I can't feel rushed or plauged by what's going on in my daily life. Maybe some people are spurred to do it by chaos in their lives, but not me. I'm finally quitting my job because I realize I need to relax and have peace before I can go through with it.

@Taylor, peace to you.
 
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You seem very ready. Thanks for being active on here. Here is hoping to a peaceful exit for you kind sir. Cheers
 
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I am going to miss seeing your justin bieber looking avatar on this forum, sir
 
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Taylor, you're one of my favorites on the forum. You've been nothing but kind and honest and you offer very good advice and feedback. I hope we cross paths somehow in another life or something.
 
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Taylor

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I am going to miss seeing your justin bieber looking avatar on this forum, sir
Haha that's me! I thought I was going to be Justin Bieber honestly, but after everything went south, I'm glad I didn't. I'm glad he's the one with that disturbing level of fame. That's torture in and of itself.
Taylor, you're one of my favorites on the forum. You've been nothing but kind and honest and you offer very good advice and feedback. I hope we cross paths somehow in another life or something.
Same here! Yeah I always try and promote positive vibes, love and kindness. I'm not perfect and I mess up sometimes, but no one is, and that's always my intention in the end. That's the way it should be.
 
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Raggas

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Wish you well fellow Christian.
 
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Wish you well fellow Christian.
Thank you brother, I'm ready for God's good grace and redemption, in the name of Jesus.
 
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Thank you, I hope you eventually find yours as well! I saw your post about partial hanging actually, I'm sorry it didn't work out. If I could I would gift a mass supply of N to everyone here, because no one deserves to mortally hurt themselves to escape their suffering.
Thank you! I'm probably going to have to change my method - I'll either jump or look at n. N seems like a very peaceful way to go
 
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Thank you! I'm probably going to have to change my method - I'll either jump or look at n. N seems like a very peaceful way to go
Definitely check out N. It's one of the easiest and uncomplicated, most peaceful methods out there. You literally just fall asleep and never wake up. Well worth the money I'd say. The only catch is getting by the supposedly awful, bitter and chemical taste, and keeping it all down with anti-emetics.
 
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