Discussion My suicide plan for this year

[miku]

Hi there,
im about to plan my suicide for the end of this year and i would like to get some thoughts / suggestions or improvements for it.

im quite not sure which way is the most deadliest/best for my case but i think i will choose drowning/freezing. at the date of newyear/winter i will do it 70%.
i will find a forest with a lake, one where hopefully no people will be but i will do it at night i think. when the temperatures are cold enough( quite
not sure at what C° i can expect to freeze).

i will try to get these drugs to make it easier for me to face it:

• Alcohol (to pass out)
• Benzos ((Valium) to get rid of any anxiety, i already have them due to my panic attacks)
• Mdma (not sure if i will be able t get it but i have been thinking about it)
• Psychedelics (also not sure if i can get it but this would also help me to enjoy the last few hours and it will help me accepting my decision)
• some sad music and headphones

if im fully sure to do it, i will go to the forest at night, take the psychedelics.
30m later i will do a medium/heavy dose of mdma.
1h after the mdma dose i hopefully know if im fully sure to continue.
if im sure, which i expect because i went so far and started it, i will start
drinking a 1/4 of a vodka bottle.
i will be at a lake at this point, after 20m i will drink the rest of the bottle and do 10-100mg valium.
if i can i try to start a second bottle, i think i need to do some research on how to suppress the urge
to purge out the alcohol, maybe i find some meds for that. at this point i will jump in the lake and wait
till im passed out..

 

[k75]

I'm sorry, but I think it's overkill with a lot of points of failure. I think this is a case of "looks better on paper."
With so many substances in your system, how can you be sure you'll remain lucid enough to even stick to the plan? So many things can go wrong or differently than you expect. I know this is pretty vague, but you really should rethink and try to keep it simple.

Plus, maybe if you need all that to go through with it, you might want to reconsider?

 

[Yoffi]

1 hour into your suicide and only then you want to make sure that you actually want to go through with this?
I wholeheartedly agree with @k75 it seems too complicated with so many points at which your survival instinct may kick in and you'll end up only hurting yourself.
another problem can be keeping track of what you still need to do, especially when you're drugged out of your mind.
maybe take all the drugs at once and then wash it down with vodka? that seems like a better idea, and you will need antiemetics.