Venting My suicidality is deeper than an intellectual thing.

[blacksand]

I can't intellectually process it anymore. I can't articulate it. I can't discuss it. I can't comprehend it. I simply know at the very core of my soul that my time in existence has gone on too long. Forget complaints of money, work, romance, sex, or anything as petty as earthbound problems- I feel like a foreigner to the very universe itself. An overstayer who has been found out. I see the year 2025 and it feels fundamentally wrong that I'm here to be part of it. I feel like a cosmic mistake, an assembly of atoms that had no more right to sentience than a rock which has miraculously awakened from an eternal slumber to a world that it was never supposed to see. All I crave is non existence again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I just wish for non-existence as well, I never should have existed at all, I find it a mistake how I had to exist, human existence is something I never should have become aware of.

 

[_Gollum_]

I feel the exact same way, never seen someone articulate it this well though.

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