Venting my substance abuse / help?

[cat0boy]

i had to quit weed because my plug swears i talked shit ab them n now they fucking hate me over nothing. i usually drink if i dont have weed, but since im not legally allowed to buy my own i have to steal my parents alcohol. which i only do if im not scared of getting caught (even though they let my brother drink as much as he wants when hes not allowed either cus they're prolly scared of him… who isnt) and i dont know what else to do. i huff inhalants but i dont wanna be stupider than j already am. all i can do rn is smoke my empty burnt ass dispo

i was thinking of finding datura since its super easy to find in my area and tripping on that. but if anyone has any suggestions for other replacements/diff substances/whatever, js lmk