Niirvana
♥Soon♥
- Sep 18, 2020
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Good morning everyone. I would like to tell you a bit about my suffering: at 6 years old I had an accident with fire (unfortunately I did not die), at 13 years old I already wanted to die because I felt inferior to others, being a very pretty girl in the face but at that age having scars in some parts of the body was a horror, with which it could be said that my depression began there. He was coming back from school and taking a nap, he had no activities other than video games on the pc. At 15 I got engaged to a 24-year-old person and my addiction to marijuana began. We smoked a lot, a lot every time we saw each other. It was a toxic relationship that lasted 8 years. I could not be with him but neither without him, every time we fought I cried like a crazy baby and he didn't care, he left me and then came back when he wanted and I accepted him. I have taken ecstasy and lsd with it. I always had a phobia of exposing in college or in front of crowds. At 20 I started with panic attacks and clonazepam. Of the 26 years that I have, I only worked three. I have been fired from the best jobs I ever had and I quit two jobs because of my anxiety. I studied a career that sucks and I did not learn anything. I have been taking antidepressants for two and a half years but I don't feel like they helped me. This year I stopped smoking marijuana and cigarettes, but I feel that my head is already burned (taking into account that I have drunk alcohol in adolescence and when taking antidepressants as well). I started with a psychiatrist two weeks ago, he gave me antidepressants. I want to be disabled because of the disorders I have, so I read it seems to be borderline plus generalized depression and anxiety. But I don't know if they will give it to me ... The only thing I do is sleep all day, I don't want to get out of bed, I live with my older sister and my brother-in-law. I just think about suicide and I found this site where they talk about the SN. I am from Argentina, can I get it? Thanks for reading
Guys, how do I know if this SN is the real one?
Guys, how do I know if this SN is the real one?
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