I've had so many major and minor diseases over the past 3 years that I've lost count. Each one has destroyed a part of me and made me miserable.
2 battles with eczema, multiple battles with chronic diarrhea. 1 battle with severe throat pain from an inflamed esophagus that lasted months, 1 very painful headache disorder developed after an improper immune response to probiotics/vaccines that still pains me to this day, and finally Zyprexa withdrawal/brain damage and the end of a romantic relationship which has literally broke me.
Every time my health has seemed to get better, it has instantly gotten way way worse.
I was committed to a psych ward in August. I wasn't read my rights nor given informed consent of the medication I was given. I wasn't told what the psych ward was and why I was there or how long I was going to be there. NOBODY informed me. Not to mention I was in severe emotional pain and psychological distress from my girlfriend breaking up and ghosting me. I didn't know telling the interviewer I had suicidal thoughts would get me locked up, otherwise I WOULD HAVE NEVER DONE IT. Now the medicine they gave me has destroyed my brain, my soul, and my body, and has made me actually suicidal. Before the suicidal thoughts were just me wanting help, now its me wanting the grave.
3 years ago I seriously thought about jumping off a hotel. Everyday when driving to work I would think about killing myself. Now, I have a noose set up in my closet, and its just a matter of days or weeks before I ctb. Thought I would share it with you guys. I'm a sick sick 20 year old.
2 battles with eczema, multiple battles with chronic diarrhea. 1 battle with severe throat pain from an inflamed esophagus that lasted months, 1 very painful headache disorder developed after an improper immune response to probiotics/vaccines that still pains me to this day, and finally Zyprexa withdrawal/brain damage and the end of a romantic relationship which has literally broke me.
Every time my health has seemed to get better, it has instantly gotten way way worse.
I was committed to a psych ward in August. I wasn't read my rights nor given informed consent of the medication I was given. I wasn't told what the psych ward was and why I was there or how long I was going to be there. NOBODY informed me. Not to mention I was in severe emotional pain and psychological distress from my girlfriend breaking up and ghosting me. I didn't know telling the interviewer I had suicidal thoughts would get me locked up, otherwise I WOULD HAVE NEVER DONE IT. Now the medicine they gave me has destroyed my brain, my soul, and my body, and has made me actually suicidal. Before the suicidal thoughts were just me wanting help, now its me wanting the grave.
3 years ago I seriously thought about jumping off a hotel. Everyday when driving to work I would think about killing myself. Now, I have a noose set up in my closet, and its just a matter of days or weeks before I ctb. Thought I would share it with you guys. I'm a sick sick 20 year old.
