My story..anyone from asia

[Tuan]

Sorry for my English at 1st as it is not my native lang.

I been gambling and tried to quit for at least 3 times, my family had to pay a lot of money for me, i started all over again, i got a good job, good friends and esepcially a perfect girl that understand and look out for me.

But i am done again, now i am just running no where and around..i dont know what wrong with me, i am really disspointed about myself


I decide to end my life at least so my family, all my friends, they wont have hope for me again, because i know if i keep living and recover, i will be with gambling again..


Just sharing my thought, for now i decided and i want to do it.

 

[StarDust]

Did you start gambling again? Or are you just thinking about it?

 

[Tuan]

Did you start gambling again? Or are you just thinking about it?

I did..this is 3rd time i try to quit..

 

[StarDust]

Well

I did..this is 3rd time i try to quit..

Well I am glad to know that you tried...like with any addiction it is hard to beat.... I know because I am an alcoholic and I had a family member that had a gambling issue. I understand...

 

[Tuan]

Well

Well I am glad to know that you tried...like with any addiction it is hard to beat.... I know because I am an alcoholic and I had a family member that had a gambling issue. I understand...

I feel so depressed and i dont think i would overcome this time

I am trying to pay some debts then i ll go for sure..reading this forum makes me feel more courage to do it

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you find peace … I haven't struggled with gambling but I do struggle with eating too much.

 

[StarDust]

I feel so depressed and i dont think i would overcome this time

I am trying to pay some debts then i ll go for sure..reading this forum makes me feel more courage to do it

I understand. I can't say not do it or otherwise...we all have our demons and some are worse than others. All I can say is that here you will find the support you seek and a "family" all it's own. We all care about one another and do not judge.

 

[StarDust]

Are

May you find peace … I haven't struggled with gambling but I do struggle with eating too much.

Are we still on for pasta or anything? :D :D :D You know I love your cooking! actually honestly I really need to eat it's been almost 3 days now and I could careless....

 

[creatureoflight]

There are really good therapies for this.
It's up to you if you kill yourself.
Is there really no hope left?

 

[Tuan]

There are really good therapies for this.
It's up to you if you kill yourself.
Is there really no hope left?

To be honest i still have hope even just alittle bit but bottom line: too many times already, i lied to my families, my all good friends..i really have no way to come back.even if i live, i still face the depression inside me everyday

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Are

Are we still on for pasta or anything? :D :D :D You know I love your cooking! actually honestly I really need to eat it's been almost 3 days now and I could careless....

I love pasta but my favorite is Chinese :)
I wish I could cook... other than microwaving a meal. ;)
I wish I could not eat for days or at least eat less. ;)

 

[creatureoflight]

To be honest i still have hope even just alittle bit but bottom line: too many times already, i lied to my families, my all good friends..i really have no way to come back.even if i live, i still face the depression inside me everyday

if you still have some left, then don't kill yourself. I am sure your family will be very sad if you do this. But in the end you have to decide if you want to do this, it is up to you. A lot of us here have chronic pain, are older than 50 or something but you seem like a smart guy and I think you are letting all your talents and chances go to waste a bit.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

To be honest I still have hope even just a little bit but bottom line: too many times already, I lied to my families, my all good friends..I really have no way to come back even if I live, I still face the depression inside me everyday

I hope that maybe you could fix this … if not I hope you find peace.

 

[StarDust]

I love pasta but my favorite is Chinese :)
I wish I could cook... other than microwaving a meal. ;)
I wish I could not eat for days or at least eat less. ;)

I would be happy to cook for you as I love to cook as I have said...and feel free to eat it all or take it home...food is wasted on me at the moment....but that is okay, my cat loves home cooking....hahahaha

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I would be happy to cook for you as I love to cook as I have said...and feel free to eat it all or take it home...food is wasted on me at the moment....but that is okay, my cat loves home cooking....hahahaha

I doubt we live anywhere near each other. At least your cat loves a cooked meal. :) lol

 

[Living_Ghost]

You should post on https://www.reddit.com/r/problemgambling/

Do not kill yourself because of gambling. Face it and get help

 

[Tuan]

You should post on https://www.reddit.com/r/problemgambling/

Do not kill yourself because of gambling. Face it and get help

You should read more carefully, this is not the 1st time. i have no turning back, even thought i really want to

I will do it tonight..

love you all and thanks for being the only friends of my life recently.

 

[Snee]

dont do it.you still have a good life.

 

[Living_Ghost]

You should read more carefully, this is not the 1st time. i have no turning back, even thought i really want to

I will do it tonight..

love you all and thanks for being the only friends of my life recently.

So ? Try for a fourth time ! You can go the rest of your life gamble free and make amends where you can. Just start today and take it one day at a time

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

If you have a perfect girlfriend/friends and a loving family and your only problem is gambling, i'd strongly advice you try some therapy before considering suicide.

 

[Tuan]

If you have a perfect girlfriend/friends and a loving family and your only problem is gambling, i'd strongly advice you try some therapy before considering suicide.

I think we all have thoughts inside that nobody will care even if your family love you so much but it has been too many times.

I tried twice yesterday but i didnt pass out :(, what wrong with me..i will try again today, if not i will jump off the bridge, i have no money left and i been staying inside the hotel rooms for almost 10 days

 

[StarDust]

I think we all have thoughts inside that nobody will care even if your family love you so much but it has been too many times.

I tried twice yesterday but i didnt pass out :(, what wrong with me..i will try again today, if not i will jump off the bridge, i have no money left and i been staying inside the hotel rooms for almost 10 days

Try right above your Adam's apple.... there is a sweet spot there....(if doing PS) if so, lean into it slowly and then just go limp....blackness happens very quickly....

And if I am wrong about your method forgive me...I am super sick and on RX cold meds....

 

[InsidiousDormouse]

I am an ex drug addict, I understand fully what addiction is capable of. It consumes you, it becomes your entire world, it eats you alive from the inside out. Gambling is even worse because you cannot go on a replacement prescription or taper off it slowly. Gambling increases the levels of dopamine in the brain, which is what drives the addiction. So in a way it is a chemical addiction just like drugs, where instead of becoming addicted to a chemical molecule in a drug, you basically become addicted to your body's own feel good chemicals. Once the buzz of the bet or spin etc is over though, the levels of that chemical fall and that fall is what drives you to gamble again.

So yeah, I understand this fully and I am sorry you're going through it.

 

[Snee]

I am an ex drug addict, I understand fully what addiction is capable of. It consumes you, it becomes your entire world, it eats you alive from the inside out. Gambling is even worse because you cannot go on a replacement prescription or taper off it slowly. Gambling increases the levels of dopamine in the brain, which is what drives the addiction. So in a way it is a chemical addiction just like drugs, where instead of becoming addicted to a chemical molecule in a drug, you basically become addicted to your body's own feel good chemicals. Once the buzz of the bet or spin etc is over though, the levels of that chemical fall and that fall is what drives you to gamble again.

So yeah, I understand this fully and I am sorry you're going through it.

how long it take you to recover from your drug addiction.

 

[Tuan]

Try right above your Adam's apple.... there is a sweet spot there....(if doing PS) if so, lean into it slowly and then just go limp....blackness happens very quickly....

And if I am wrong about your method forgive me...I am super sick and on RX cold meds....

well i tried again, it works...many thanks bro...

Good bye all :) time for me to go

 

[Jaguar]

If this is really it for you OP, I wish you peace.

 

[StarDust]

well i tried again, it works...many thanks bro...

Good bye all :) time for me to go

Take care and know if anything goes wrong, we are still here for you and we will NEVER EVER JUDGE!!! xxx wishing you a peaceful afterlife....and hey...could you possible have some fun for me until I get there?

 

[Amira]

well i tried again, it works...many thanks bro...

Good bye all :) time for me to go

I wish you peace Tuan. Dead or alive i hope you suffer no more.Sorry i couldnt get to you sooner.