My speech is fucked.

[feast or famine]

I pride myself on the fact that I'm a well spoken individual, at least I'd like to think so. Lately, however, I've noticed that my speech is suffering. I have dealt with decades worth of anxiety, depression, trauma, etc. It's clearly taken its toll in various ways, but lately, I'm noticing my speech capabilities aren't as strong as they once were. This is more than just the average fuck up. I find myself tripping over my words and stuttering often. I'll also have a concise idea I want to verbalize, but I'll fail miserably when I actually attempt to speak out loud.

This is not the norm for me and something that's slightly embarrassing. Luckily, this tends to mostly happen around those that know me well and won't judge me, but it's becoming yet another reason I just stay quiet for the most part.

I know mental afflictions can affect us in all sorts of ways, but this has newly presented itself to me and I'm wondering if anyone else deals with anything similar? Anyone at all? Bueller...?

 

[Thegoldenapples]

I used to have a stutter when I was a child. Felt like my thoughts were too quick for mouth. Then I would get anxiety when someone asked me a question and made it worse. One day it just stopped. Think my anxiety slowly went and then that went with it. Then I used to hesitate as a teenager sometimes, when I got anxiety, then that made it worse when I would think too much into it. Kinda ended up forcing the words out slowly and carefully, then it went away again. Was all quite confusing. I suggest not thinking into it to much or you'll feed it. Doesn't sound like a permanent thing, sounds like a mental block.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Yeah. Ever since my dissociation things like that have kind of gone downhill on me. It's kind of like a dyslexic thing I think. I mix up words even though I know better. Trip over myself. Combine words because my mouth jumped ahead to where my brain was thinking. I personally find mixing up words the worse. I find I do it on here or just messaging in general a lot and it makes me feel like an idiot.

 

[feast or famine]

Yeah. Ever since my dissociation things like that have kind of gone downhill on me. It's kind of like a dyslexic thing I think. I mix up words even though I know better. Trip over myself. Combine words because my mouth jumped ahead to where my brain was thinking. I personally find mixing up words the worse. I find I do it on here or just messaging in general a lot and it makes me feel like an idiot.

Don't ever feel like an idiot! I know it's easier said than done, but don't be too hard on yourself. I should take my own advice as well. I get what you mean, though. I reread things I post on here umpteen times and edit the hell out of them because I am paranoid that I sound like a complete moron.

You hit the nail on the head when you said your mouth jumps too far ahead before your brain can catch up. That's my main issue and I'm like fuck it, I'll just become a mime.

I used to have a stutter when I was a child. Felt like my thoughts were too quick for mouth. Then I would get anxiety when someone asked me a question and made it worse. One day it just stopped. Think my anxiety slowly went and then that went with it. Then I used to hesitate as a teenager sometimes, when I got anxiety, then that made it worse when I would think too much into it. Kinda ended up forcing the words out slowly and carefully, then it went away again. Was all quite confusing. I suggest not thinking into it to much or you'll feed it. Doesn't sound like a permanent thing, sounds like a mental block.

I'm glad that this is something that's no longer an issue for you! This isn't an everyday thing for me, but something that's become more noticeable lately.

I find this happens when I'm not only in anxiety inducing situations. The majority of the time, it seems to happen when I'm calm. It just feels like some of my cognitive abilities are shot. I agree that it's important to try not to feed into this as that will only exacerbate the issue.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Don't ever feel like an idiot!

I reread things I post on here umpteen times and edit the hell out of them because I am paranoid that I sound like a complete moron

Well I feel a little better now knowing I'm not the only one to do that

 

[Thegoldenapples]

Don't ever feel like an idiot! I know it's easier said than done, but don't be too hard on yourself. I should take my own advice as well. I get what you mean, though. I reread things I post on here umpteen times and edit the hell out of them because I am paranoid that I sound like a complete moron.

You hit the nail on the head when you said your mouth jumps too far ahead before your brain can catch up. That's my main issue and I'm like fuck it, I'll just become a mime.

I'm glad that this is something that's no longer an issue for you! This isn't an everyday thing for me, but something that's become more noticeable lately.

I find this happens when I'm not only in anxiety inducing situations. The majority of the time, it seems to happen when I'm calm. It just feels like some of my cognitive abilities are shot. I agree that it's important to try not to feed into this as that will only exacerbate the issue.

Not an everyday thing is still good. My stutter was like a proper stutter you see in kids that struggle to get a sentence out. Only suggestion I'd make is to try to accept it and don't be caught up in and then it might just go away. If you're on this site, then your mind is clearly going through a lot. Try not be too hard on yourself. You're only human. Some supplementation might help as well. Something to look into.

 

[banned noob]

I am so jealous that you have people in your life who know you well and don't judge you.