perdredenord
he/him • wishing for a will to live
- Dec 26, 2020
- 59
I've been trying to get away from these thoughts and feelings but I keep coming back to it. I'm doing my best to not ctb, but my greatest loves do nothing for me in my current state.
I put aside the money in such small amounts for ~ years ~ and finally got myself an okay setup to create music... but I haven't been able to create in months. Trying makes me feel sick my stomach. It's the only thing that I feel I can offer to the world that's worth anything, even though it's not much.
I think it's because I need to get away from where I am. I don't know how I can, and survive long term, though...
I put aside the money in such small amounts for ~ years ~ and finally got myself an okay setup to create music... but I haven't been able to create in months. Trying makes me feel sick my stomach. It's the only thing that I feel I can offer to the world that's worth anything, even though it's not much.
I think it's because I need to get away from where I am. I don't know how I can, and survive long term, though...