GUZMA
Whore44
- Mar 31, 2024
- 79
Hey all, it's been a bit since I've been here, haven't felt crazy bad until now
One of my art posts got some decent attention online which is insanely rare for me, and I got a bunch of new followers and compliments and it felt lovely until the hatred started to leak in
One by one
I'd get another comment on the topic
No one was insulting my art, hell my art wasn't even about it it was fucking fanart
But one by one I'd get another comment telling me to kill myself
And normally I'd brush it off like yeah haha whatever they're just joking around but
A lot of people started to seem very serious
And I started to think about it too much
And when it's just so many people, like so many sharing the same opinion, the same comment, the same thought it starts to get to you
Just for posting some fan art
And on top of that I'm starting to be more anxious, I have never had so many eyes on me before, I don't know if this is good for me but I've been spending YEARS trying to get to this point and now that I'm finally hear it just seems a waste to abandon it
I don't know
I'm so scared, so many people and I feel lonelier than ever. I don't have anyone to confine in because I don't go out drinking with my friends and we've started to grow distant and I don't talk to other people enough I'm just so scared
Thanks for listening to my ramble
One of my art posts got some decent attention online which is insanely rare for me, and I got a bunch of new followers and compliments and it felt lovely until the hatred started to leak in
One by one
I'd get another comment on the topic
No one was insulting my art, hell my art wasn't even about it it was fucking fanart
But one by one I'd get another comment telling me to kill myself
And normally I'd brush it off like yeah haha whatever they're just joking around but
A lot of people started to seem very serious
And I started to think about it too much
And when it's just so many people, like so many sharing the same opinion, the same comment, the same thought it starts to get to you
Just for posting some fan art
And on top of that I'm starting to be more anxious, I have never had so many eyes on me before, I don't know if this is good for me but I've been spending YEARS trying to get to this point and now that I'm finally hear it just seems a waste to abandon it
I don't know
I'm so scared, so many people and I feel lonelier than ever. I don't have anyone to confine in because I don't go out drinking with my friends and we've started to grow distant and I don't talk to other people enough I'm just so scared
Thanks for listening to my ramble