Venting My recent attempt ... need some love :(

[dxstressed]

Hi everyone,

It seems forever since I've posted on here. I recently tried to jump off a bridge, but the voices and the delusions led me to believe cameras were watching me and shadows were following me so I went home and went to A&E. 9 gruelling hours to just be sent home. I'm now signed off sick from work, I just can't fucking bring myself to do it.

I have two incredible friends... they are worried sick about me. I've noticed so many people come out of the waterworks when your suicidal, but never when you need them most? Just want someone to fix my fucked up brain.

I'm diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder and the CPN I've seen has suggested it may be something more than that going on atm.

Idk I'm just venting. I'm sorry.

I hope your all as okay as you can be, it's a horrible world out there

Love
Dxstressed xoxo

 

[emgrl]

That's a lot to have going on. It's great to have friends, and it sucks when they're not there when you need them.

Hopefully you can figure everything out that's going on with you, so you can get the proper treatment you deserve (if that's what you want).

In the meantime you have here, and us… you're not alone

 

[Dead Meat]

I'm so sorry for what you've been through, I'm sending you Lot's of Love, Big hugs and Beautiful Blessings for you Beautiful Soul

 

[dxstressed]

That's a lot to have going on. It's great to have friends, and it sucks when they're not there when you need them.

Hopefully you can figure everything out that's going on with you, so you can get the proper treatment you deserve (if that's what you want).

In the meantime you have here, and us… you're not alone

I'm desperate for the help. My close circle is incredible and supportive. It's just people I've not spoke to in a while have resurfaced.

I'm so thankful for everyone in this community. It's so relieving to be able to speak how I'm reallt feeling without being judged

I'm so sorry for what you've been through, I'm sending you Lot's of Love, Big hugs and Beautiful Blessings for you Beautiful Soul

Thank you so much. It means more to me than you'll probably ever know

 

[emgrl]

I'm desperate for the help. My close circle is incredible and supportive. It's just people I've not spoke to in a while have resurfaced.

I'm so thankful for everyone in this community. It's so relieving to be able to speak how I'm reallt feeling without being judged

Thank you so much. It means more to me than you'll probably ever know

I get it… I really do. I just avoid those resurfacing… works for me. Everyone has to do it their own way…

Anytime hun ♡

 

[ClownMe]

 

[NeverEndingPain]

Hi everyone,

It seems forever since I've posted on here. I recently tried to jump off a bridge, but the voices and the delusions led me to believe cameras were watching me and shadows were following me so I went home and went to A&E. 9 gruelling hours to just be sent home. I'm now signed off sick from work, I just can't fucking bring myself to do it.

I have two incredible friends... they are worried sick about me. I've noticed so many people come out of the waterworks when your suicidal, but never when you need them most? Just want someone to fix my fucked up brain.

I'm diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder and the CPN I've seen has suggested it may be something more than that going on atm.

Idk I'm just venting. I'm sorry.

I hope your all as okay as you can be, it's a horrible world out there

Love
Dxstressed xoxo

They sent you home? Did they know you were suicidal?

 

[FuneralGrey]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. It's incredible how many people suddenly "care" when they think you're at risk, but who otherwise aren't around when you need support.

I wish I had some better words of comfort, but I will be sending love and hugs your way. I hope you are able to find some relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that it's such a horrible world, this life is certainly very cruel. It must had been really tiring and awful what you had to endure. I wish you the best.

 

[jodes2]

Sorry about your bridge experience, I had the same when I went to beachy head to jump, I thought there was a helicopter watching me, sigh psychosis sucks

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Hi @ClownMe, how's old man Frankie, Please give him a tickle behind the ear for me

 

[ClownMe]

Hi @ClownMe, how's old man Frankie, Please give him a tickle behind the ear for me

Hey @Lone WOLF ❤. Frankie is still getting around! Right now he's sleeping next to me.

I'm sorry to hear about Max. I don't think ill be able to cope when my Frankie passes on, he's pretty much the only reason im still here despite my mental state getting progressively worse by the day.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Hey @Lone WOLF ❤. Frankie is still getting around! Right now he's sleeping next to me.

I'm sorry to hear about Max. I don't think ill be able to cope when my Frankie passes on, he's pretty much the only reason im still here despite my mental state getting progressively worse by the day.

Thank you @ClownMe for your Condolences, it's 7 month's since Max passed away and my flat still feels so empty, it pleases my heart to hear Frankie is ok, "Sweet furry dreams Frankie " Yeah l hear you friend, My mental health is declining also, l keep seeing images of people l know are long gone and it feels like a message is trying to get to me! Hugs to you both

 

[makethepainstop]

Hi everyone,

It seems forever since I've posted on here. I recently tried to jump off a bridge, but the voices and the delusions led me to believe cameras were watching me and shadows were following me so I went home and went to A&E. 9 gruelling hours to just be sent home. I'm now signed off sick from work, I just can't fucking bring myself to do it.

I have two incredible friends... they are worried sick about me. I've noticed so many people come out of the waterworks when your suicidal, but never when you need them most? Just want someone to fix my fucked up brain.

I'm diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder and the CPN I've seen has suggested it may be something more than that going on atm.

Idk I'm just venting. I'm sorry.

I hope your all as okay as you can be, it's a horrible world out there

Love
Dxstressed xoxo

Well my friend you have gone to the right place to vent. It's not like the rest of us don't vent either! Remember failure is merely a dress rehearsal for success! Much love to you.

 

[Ghost_fairytale]

I'm so sorry for your failed attempt. It's absolutely traumatic to go through something like this. Don't apologise for venting, there are a bunch of people here who are willing to hear you out much love to you and may you find your peace

 

[doesitreallymatter]

Hi everyone,

It seems forever since I've posted on here. I recently tried to jump off a bridge, but the voices and the delusions led me to believe cameras were watching me and shadows were following me so I went home and went to A&E. 9 gruelling hours to just be sent home. I'm now signed off sick from work, I just can't fucking bring myself to do it.

I have two incredible friends... they are worried sick about me. I've noticed so many people come out of the waterworks when your suicidal, but never when you need them most? Just want someone to fix my fucked up brain.

I'm diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder and the CPN I've seen has suggested it may be something more than that going on atm.

Idk I'm just venting. I'm sorry.

I hope your all as okay as you can be, it's a horrible world out there

Love
Dxstressed xoxo

Hi dxstressed sorry to hear your having such a hard time of it. Can I ask what happened when you went to a+e did they offer you any help at all ? It does seem like you actually want to get help, which is brilliant !!

 

[dxstressed]

They sent you home? Did they know you were suicidal?

Yeah they knew. They didn't care.

They sent you home? Did they know you were suicidal?

Yeah they knew. They didn't care,

I'm sorry you had to go through that. It's incredible how many people suddenly "care" when they think you're at risk, but who otherwise aren't around when you need support.

I wish I had some better words of comfort, but I will be sending love and hugs your way. I hope you are able to find some relief.

thank you so much I really appreciate it x

Well my friend you have gone to the right place to vent. It's not like the rest of us don't vent either! Remember failure is merely a dress rehearsal for success! Much love to you.

Sending my love to you too. Thank you all for listening x

Hi dxstressed sorry to hear your having such a hard time of it. Can I ask what happened when you went to a+e did they offer you any help at all ? It does seem like you actually want to get help, which is brilliant !!

They dosed me up with diazepam to try and calm me down. It was 9 hours before I saw the mental health team, told me to go home and rest and they'd ring me in the afternoon which they didn't. :( I have a psych appointment soon, but not soon enough.

 

[Outandproud]

Sertraline help me with emotional issues from my borderline pd.. and clona and zolpidem to sleep.. hope you feel better soon so sorry that you have expierenced such distress.. maybe it was not your time to go yet