Ameya
A nobody
- Mar 22, 2021
- 130
I always believed my reasons to die are selfish, because I have never been physically abused nor experienced poverty. Since from a young age I have been emotionally neglected. No one wanted me around yet made sure I wasn't "standing around alone". I screamed uncontrollably as a child to a not normal extend. (Why? I don't know I don't remember, maybe emotional negelaction.) Thus made people drift away from me. Including my family. I only had maybe 1 or 2 friends around me. I only had 1 sincere childhood friend I am thankful for. Many of my more distant family dislike me, because of my old child self no interest in me now. My own close ones calling me boring so....family is out of the question. I tried to connect with others, but I couldn't. Sometimes abusive friends being the result. Anyway this was all in the past, but I have no interest in life anymore. My crippling low self eestem adds to it. It's not anyones fault. I just grew up in a not fitted environment.
I want to take my life to end my endless loneliness. I do not to feel this endless suffering and emptiness anymore.
This post is a bit boring, but maybe someone has similar reasons. What are yours?
I want to take my life to end my endless loneliness. I do not to feel this endless suffering and emptiness anymore.
This post is a bit boring, but maybe someone has similar reasons. What are yours?
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