I was really briliant kid, i had IQ 133 when i was young, after growing i was 137. I was really brilliant compared to my folks. I had a future. At least i thought like that. But after some event i have lost all of it.
Right now i have 24/7 brain fog and problem with concentrating. People are stupid around me, everyone is so fucking dumb and shallow. Im very angry person because of it. I fell like i'm alone in this. There was a days when i wanted to fit in. So i started to behave stupid. Degenerate myself. Im sad, that i started drinking, but the most part im sad i started doing drugs.
I don't have bad life, i have money, government gives me enough to live. But the hardness of thinking. And problems with connect to people are so, so much a bagage that im not in comfort living like this anymore.
Right now i making an app. It is hard to develop this with such a concentrating problems, very hard. And this is my be or not to be. If i succeed i might be a millionaire (can also go to jail - its barely legal). Or i wont. Thats my future.
And happy past.
And by the way kids, intelligence often is compared to know what will happen after you do something and if will be bad preventing it from happening. This is baaaaad execution of intelligence. People will hate it in you, they wont understand why, you behave like you do. They wont know consequences of they own behaves. They think they want it. People need to makes mistakes, they need to feel trapped and they need fight and struggle to be alive. Deprivate ing them from this kind of experience will lead to loneliness.
And you will hate yourself for this.
The best usage if inteligence, the best roadi think is to make mistakes, and live with it. When you know everything. You will never lose a key, always remember everything from shop list and be perfect. And somehow,you will be - invisible to others.
Right now i have 24/7 brain fog and problem with concentrating. People are stupid around me, everyone is so fucking dumb and shallow. Im very angry person because of it. I fell like i'm alone in this. There was a days when i wanted to fit in. So i started to behave stupid. Degenerate myself. Im sad, that i started drinking, but the most part im sad i started doing drugs.
I don't have bad life, i have money, government gives me enough to live. But the hardness of thinking. And problems with connect to people are so, so much a bagage that im not in comfort living like this anymore.
Right now i making an app. It is hard to develop this with such a concentrating problems, very hard. And this is my be or not to be. If i succeed i might be a millionaire (can also go to jail - its barely legal). Or i wont. Thats my future.
And happy past.
And by the way kids, intelligence often is compared to know what will happen after you do something and if will be bad preventing it from happening. This is baaaaad execution of intelligence. People will hate it in you, they wont understand why, you behave like you do. They wont know consequences of they own behaves. They think they want it. People need to makes mistakes, they need to feel trapped and they need fight and struggle to be alive. Deprivate ing them from this kind of experience will lead to loneliness.
And you will hate yourself for this.
The best usage if inteligence, the best roadi think is to make mistakes, and live with it. When you know everything. You will never lose a key, always remember everything from shop list and be perfect. And somehow,you will be - invisible to others.
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