Method My plan to drive myself insane to weaken SI

[Insomniac]

1. Xanax withdrawal: I'm currently under high dose of Xanax and if I stop taking it, I'll become aggressive. Xanax withdrawal makes me aggressive and violent, I break things, scream, cut myself etc.

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2. Sleeplessness: another thing that drive me insane is lack of sleep. I could try to not sleep for 3 days straight (using caffeine) then...

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3. Overdosing on caffeine. This will increase my nervousness and lose my hability to reason

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4.Distracted myself with movies/animes to avoid intrusive thoughts. Thoughts that try to convince me to wait or postpone my suicide.

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5. My mom and dad: they both trigger immensely but I usually defend myself. Next times they are emotionally abusive, I'll just bottle my anger up and bottle up and bottle up

and with a combination of all this, I'm sure I'll be able to either slice my brachial artery in half or hang myself (no access to any other method).

This is my plan to weaken my SI. Hopefully it'll work.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course it is very difficult to overcome the SI as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier to ctb I would already be gone. I wish you the best with your plans. I hope things go the way you want them to.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

could work, more likely its a good way to get institutionalized.

 

[Istanbulite]

i would advice against it

 

[Lost Magic]

I am going the opposite route. I plan to take propranolol, some benzos and a sleeping tab before ctb. I want my nerves calm, not all stressed to fuck.