Venting My parents throw me out of house

[Watcher]

Yesterday I discussed with my parents, I was in bad mood 'cause the effects of the pills were finishing to work. They decided that I should drive the car coming back home. But something went wrong, nothing major happened to the car, it's completely working good. But a few months ago I crashed the same car, so we (most of the money was from my parents) decided to repair it. The problem is that I've been suffering depression since five years ago, and anxiety. When I crashed, I was going through a crysis. They didn't do anything at that moment, like five years ago they decided that I was able to overcome everything by my own. So I don't know, yesterday my dad told me to leave the house, he was angry because I'm atheist, and I don't want to study anymore the career he obligated me to study... So to resume, I escaped to the forest, and I have all to survive like two or three days. Also, I have Sn but I don't have strong enough antiemetics, I forgot them in my house...

Only one question, I don't care if I throw the sn away once I swallowed it, but ¿Enough sn could still work if I swallow a huge amount of it?

 

[Thorn]

The larger the dose, the sooner you throw up.
That aside for a moment, your dad is angry because you don't believe in fairies? And you are obliged to take the career he chooses?
Maybe he would reconsider once he's sober?

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry, @Watcher. I used to get thrown out too. (((Hugs)))

Please don't take the SN without the antiemetics. You'll feel like crap, and that doesn't help anything.

It sounds like you can go back to your home after your parents have calmed down? I hope you'll keep safe in the meantime. (((More hugs)))

 

[pole]

Yesterday I discussed with my parents, I was in bad mood 'cause the effects of the pills were finishing to work. They decided that I should drive the car coming back home. But something went wrong, nothing major happened to the car, it's completely working good. But a few months ago I crashed the same car, so we (most of the money was from my parents) decided to repair it. The problem is that I've been suffering depression since five years ago, and anxiety. When I crashed, I was going through a crysis. They didn't do anything at that moment, like five years ago they decided that I was able to overcome everything by my own. So I don't know, yesterday my dad told me to leave the house, he was angry because I'm atheist, and I don't want to study anymore the career he obligated me to study... So to resume, I escaped to the forest, and I have all to survive like two or three days. Also, I have Sn but I don't have strong enough antiemetics, I forgot them in my house...

Only one question, I don't care if I throw the sn away once I swallowed it, but ¿Enough sn could still work if I swallow a huge amount of it?

You're gonna suffer intensely if you take SN without anti emetics. Its gonna feel like theres something growing inside you're stomach, someone stabbed you and is twisting a knife in you're stomach, etc. It was fucking bad. People have died by it, but more have been forced to call 911 because they couldnt take the pain anymore within 10 mins of taking SN. You're only thing going for you is that you is that you're in the middle of nowhere in the forest and what not. But im sorry, its far from a peaceful death and the chances of you dying are slim, simply because of the lack of anti emetics.

 

[Watcher]

You're gonna suffer intensely if you take SN without anti emetics. Its gonna feel like theres something growing inside you're stomach, someone stabbed you and is twisting a knife in you're stomach, etc. It was fucking bad. People have died by it, but more have been forced to call 911 because they couldnt take the pain anymore within 10 mins of taking SN. You're only thing going for you is that you is that you're in the middle of nowhere in the forest and what not. But im sorry, its far from a peaceful death and the chances of you dying are slim, simply because of the lack of anti emetics.

Do you think an overdose of benzos could help to handle sn effects before drinking it? I bought anti emetics today, I crossed the entire forest, it's not a big place, but it's big enough to hide in, and never get found

 

[pole]

Do you think an overdose of benzos could help to handle sn effects before drinking it? I bought anti emetics today, I crossed the entire forest, it's not a big place, but it's big enough to hide in, and never get found

Thats a good thing, since its in the middle of nowhere. But thats not the problem. The problem is you're SI. Benzos are definitely gonna help and obviously anti emetics increase your chances even more.

But for it to work 100 percent, use a schedule. You can find these throughout SN threads in the forum. Dosing schedule. People tend to take anti emetics 2 days in advance, and just stay on a steady dosage of it till the final hour. Id look into that.

But still, even doing all of this, theres a chance you'll still be alive. Its just your SI. I was gonna do SN, now im gonna do N. There have been dozens who just do all this, do the schedule, do proper dosaging, yet survive because of the unbearable pain and call emergency services and seek help.

Id definitely try and get intoxicated for sure. That'll help but check the proper dosages and a dosage schedule.

Good luck. And hope you find the peace your looking for. ❤

 

[Soul]

Yes, people take benzos before taking SN. You should look at the first couple of pages of the SN megathread in the List of Resources near the top of the forum. Please be careful and good to yourself.

 

[1234dave]

You're gonna suffer intensely if you take SN without anti emetics. Its gonna feel like theres something growing inside you're stomach, someone stabbed you and is twisting a knife in you're stomach, etc. It was fucking bad. People have died by it, but more have been forced to call 911 because they couldnt take the pain anymore within 10 mins of taking SN. You're only thing going for you is that you is that you're in the middle of nowhere in the forest and what not. But im sorry, its far from a peaceful death and the chances of you dying are slim, simply because of the lack of anti emetics.

Have you done it without anti emetics?

 

[pole]

Have you done it without anti emetics?

Nope. I was planning on doing it, but the survival rate and stories of those whom have survived has forced me to get N. And i know the feeling of having your stomach being twisted and your guts being torn apart, multiple kidney stones is excruciating and the pains worse than child birth.

Anything thats excruciating to your guts and stomach region is PAINFUL.