libertybellreplica
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- Oct 14, 2024
- 14
For some exposition Im currently living with my parents for a gap year before I go to college. They don't suspect I'm suicidal and I want to keep it that way because my ideal death would be a surprise to my family ( Now that I type that out it makes me sound like a psychopath). The first time they stopped me was when I was ordering SN which is located in Ukraine. I didn't realize that my parents were monitoring my debit card and they found out about the payment and confronted me about it. I played dumb so we filled a fraud report and I got my money back. ( I'm still extremely worried that the company is gonna find this as fraud and imma get in trouble). After that was over I was discouraged until I remembered my dad had mentioned has a shotgun. I spent a few hours one day when my parents were gone searching for it but couldn't find it and the only places it could have been were a few locked drawers in my dad's office. Through conversation I casually confirm that it's in there and I'm happy cause all I have to do now is take his keys and steal the gun and you know. I steal his keys and when he's not there I go into the office and search all of the drawers and it's not in any of them. I am so confused if he lied to me about the gun being in there or if he moved it or something or maybe I'm blind and didn't see it. Now my chance is over and I'm extremely depressed. I don't know what to do right now because I planned on ending myself in order to avoid something really bad tomorrow. And now I don't know what I should do. I might just go jump off something tonight if I can muster up the courage.
