thelittleprincess
the billboard said "the end is near"
- Dec 5, 2025
- 17
I wrote this back in July, when I really planned on doing it. Everything still applies, although I did tweak some of the lines. I don't know if I still will CTB, but the idea is incredibly tempting. I hold so much hatred for this world and the cruelty it incubates. This is my suicide note, final wishes, and last words, in the form of a song that I will never sing.
Some added context, in my religion, people who commit suicide are not allowed funerals or cremation. So, my fate is left unknown.
The Willow Tree (to whom it may concern)
when I die
could you plant a willow in my eye?
and tell Ever, Kaleigh, and Rye
that I'm sorry, but they're far stronger than I
and when i go
could you bury me in the garden patch?
where i watched a baby spider hatch?
and where the raspberries don't grow
cause when i'm gone,
i'd like to be a weeping willow tree
would you grandkids come and visit me
and close their eyes, and feel the breeze?
i don't want to be lonely
and when i'm down just three feet under
(since i was never really whole)
and you won't see me any longer
since i won't get a funeral
don't visit on my birthday and don't come cry at my grave
i don't want you stuck on guilt for somebody you couldn't save
just think fondly on the memories that we made
when i go
could you sprinkle dandelion seeds over my scars?
and take good care of my shitty car?
and don't let dust collect on my guitar
when i die
just tell Nathan he was funny
and tell Brielle she was sweet
and Josiah that he's kinder than he seems
and to Audel, i hope your truck gets fixed
i'm sorry for the shit i did
and to Wyatt, i'm so sorry I had to leave
you'll never know just how much you meant to me
and i don't know if i believe in God,
but I'm looking for him everywhere
i just want something to trust in once i'm gone
i almost want someone to tell me to hold on, but for how long?
i think i'm tired of holding on
i think i'm done
when i'm gone
don't tell Lydia what i did, just say i went on a long trip
she's too young to know the cruelty of this world for many more years still
to the sister who raised and taught me more than my parents ever did
i love you more than anything
thanks for putting up with my dramatic shit
tell Theo that i'm proud of him
and tell Lori she's a bitch
and Franny that I never blamed her for being the favorite
and when i die
i'm sorry if i make you cry
i'm sorry if you're angry or you're sad
just know i lived the life i had
and i hope i didn't do too bad
and i hope i left this world a little glad
so, when i'm dead
please plant a ring of rosethorns round my head
and make sure my cats are loved and fed
and don't water my grave with tears that you shed
because when i'm down just three feet under
since i was only half a soul
i don't want a shoddy gravestone that'll crumble when it's old
turn me into a willow, seriously
and let kids climb up into my leaves
and if you must sell the property
just tell them that beneath the roots is me
and i'd appreciate it if they let me keep standing
so. when i leave
and when i am just three feet deep
and when you cannot fall asleep
just come visit the willow tree
not for guilt and not for peace
just come visit the willow tree
and together we can be lonely
just come and visit me.
Some added context, in my religion, people who commit suicide are not allowed funerals or cremation. So, my fate is left unknown.
The Willow Tree (to whom it may concern)
when I die
could you plant a willow in my eye?
and tell Ever, Kaleigh, and Rye
that I'm sorry, but they're far stronger than I
and when i go
could you bury me in the garden patch?
where i watched a baby spider hatch?
and where the raspberries don't grow
cause when i'm gone,
i'd like to be a weeping willow tree
would you grandkids come and visit me
and close their eyes, and feel the breeze?
i don't want to be lonely
and when i'm down just three feet under
(since i was never really whole)
and you won't see me any longer
since i won't get a funeral
don't visit on my birthday and don't come cry at my grave
i don't want you stuck on guilt for somebody you couldn't save
just think fondly on the memories that we made
when i go
could you sprinkle dandelion seeds over my scars?
and take good care of my shitty car?
and don't let dust collect on my guitar
when i die
just tell Nathan he was funny
and tell Brielle she was sweet
and Josiah that he's kinder than he seems
and to Audel, i hope your truck gets fixed
i'm sorry for the shit i did
and to Wyatt, i'm so sorry I had to leave
you'll never know just how much you meant to me
and i don't know if i believe in God,
but I'm looking for him everywhere
i just want something to trust in once i'm gone
i almost want someone to tell me to hold on, but for how long?
i think i'm tired of holding on
i think i'm done
when i'm gone
don't tell Lydia what i did, just say i went on a long trip
she's too young to know the cruelty of this world for many more years still
to the sister who raised and taught me more than my parents ever did
i love you more than anything
thanks for putting up with my dramatic shit
tell Theo that i'm proud of him
and tell Lori she's a bitch
and Franny that I never blamed her for being the favorite
and when i die
i'm sorry if i make you cry
i'm sorry if you're angry or you're sad
just know i lived the life i had
and i hope i didn't do too bad
and i hope i left this world a little glad
so, when i'm dead
please plant a ring of rosethorns round my head
and make sure my cats are loved and fed
and don't water my grave with tears that you shed
because when i'm down just three feet under
since i was only half a soul
i don't want a shoddy gravestone that'll crumble when it's old
turn me into a willow, seriously
and let kids climb up into my leaves
and if you must sell the property
just tell them that beneath the roots is me
and i'd appreciate it if they let me keep standing
so. when i leave
and when i am just three feet deep
and when you cannot fall asleep
just come visit the willow tree
not for guilt and not for peace
just come visit the willow tree
and together we can be lonely
just come and visit me.
