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Goldie

Specialist
Sep 6, 2018
307
My N arrived yesterday. I've got to start taking big big breaths because this is about to start getting very very real.

It was very well concealed - A definitely knows what he is doing. I live in Vietnam where 100% of packages are opened if not sent from a known import/exporter. Despite all of this it got through. It took 3.5 weeks to reach Vietnam.

I chose private courier. From seeing the package it is obvious what 'private courier' actually means, it isnt any from of 'private service' that will increase suspicion, the whole point of it is to decrease suspicion. My advice is to use private courier as it will definitely increase the chances of your package going through.

Others have said that once they get their N their outlook starts to change. Now having my N I'm not sure how I feel. I had started to feel fractionally better in the last 10-14 days (those who care or are otherwise observant will notice I have not been as active recently) but I'm starting to feel bad again. I hope I can find the courage to do it.
 
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311

Dying cat
Nov 24, 2018
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Wish you luck my good friend
 
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littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
708
That's wonderful! Very happy for you. Thinking about ordering N also
 
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therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
Very happy for you! Thanks for the tip about the private courier. A says it's better but a lot of people here recommended regular post so I was a bit confused
 
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gingerplum

Enlightened
Nov 5, 2018
1,450
Knowing that you control your own fate can be can be very empowering! I support you and wish you the best, regardless of your decision.
 
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okyeah

Arcanist
Jul 20, 2018
425
awesome man thats very exciting
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,504
That's fantastic! I'm happy for you. This news gives me some hope.
 
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15dec

ember in the dark
Dec 7, 2018
1,550
That's good to hear! Best wishes friend
 
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1234dave

Specialist
Oct 5, 2018
369
Nice one, big achievement to get past Asian customs.
 
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OkTotti

Wizard
Nov 6, 2018
616
Whether or not if your outlook has changed, at least you now you have the means to go through if you choose to do so.

Any tentative plans like booking a hotel? or preparation on drinking the N?
 
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yaya

sad
Dec 17, 2018
11
I'm glad you now have the option to do whatever you feel is right for you! Would it be possible for you to PM A's contact info? I'm seriously considering this method myself and it would be a great comfort to have such a good option available to me. Thank you! I wish you the best!
 
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Goldie

Specialist
Sep 6, 2018
307
Wish you luck my good friend
Thank you so much.
That's wonderful! Very happy for you. Thinking about ordering N also
Go for it. A knows what hes doing.
Very happy for you! Thanks for the tip about the private courier. A says it's better but a lot of people here recommended regular post so I was a bit confused
Yes, if anything A should call it 'extra concealment' method as private courier has a risk of increasing concerns.
Knowing that you control your own fate can be can be very empowering! I support you and wish you the best, regardless of your decision.
Yes, I feel good but also scared.
awesome man thats very exciting
Yep! Thank youuuu
That's fantastic! I'm happy for you. This news gives me some hope.
Yep, if you need any help feel free to use the megathread and/or PM me.
That's good to hear! Best wishes friend
Thanks :)
Whether or not if your outlook has changed, at least you now you have the means to go through if you choose to do so.

Any tentative plans like booking a hotel? or preparation on drinking the N?
I live alone so I dont need to book a hotel. I will get hold of some meto and use an ice cube to limit the taste.
I'm glad you now have the option to do whatever you feel is right for you! Would it be possible for you to PM A's contact info? I'm seriously considering this method myself and it would be a great comfort to have such a good option available to me. Thank you! I wish you the best!
It is in the resources sticky thread in this forum.
 
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Fcancer

Student
Sep 24, 2018
184
Others have said that once they get their N their outlook starts to change. Now having my N I'm not sure how I feel. I had started to feel fractionally better in the last 10-14 days (those who care or are otherwise observant will notice I have not been as active recently) but I'm starting to feel bad again. I hope I can find the courage to do it.
I'm the same man, I must have had mine about a month now. I got no idea how I feel about it either, it just sits in my room. I know I have to do it, but it's not easy to get to that point.
 
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bearly

New Member
Dec 18, 2018
2
is there any way you can share the contacts of your source. Perhaps his protonmail address? Is it AV in Mexico?
 
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OkTotti

Wizard
Nov 6, 2018
616
is there any way you can share the contacts of your source. Perhaps his protonmail address? Is it AV in Mexico?
He bought them from A. and he can not post the email address here.
 
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johnny

Experienced
Dec 5, 2018
255
Can someone pm me regarding bitcoin and anti E protocol?

thx
 
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Goldie

Specialist
Sep 6, 2018
307
is there any way you can share the contacts of your source. Perhaps his protonmail address? Is it AV in Mexico?
Yes its A. Email address in the Resources sticky thread.

Good luck!
 
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Goldie

Specialist
Sep 6, 2018
307
I'm the same man, I must have had mine about a month now. I got no idea how I feel about it either, it just sits in my room. I know I have to do it, but it's not easy to get to that point.
Yes I agree.
I'm feeling really unhappy this weekend, which I suppose is a step in the right direction now I have it.
 
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OkTotti

Wizard
Nov 6, 2018
616
Yes I agree.
I'm feeling really unhappy this weekend, which I suppose is a step in the right direction now I have it.
hmm.. that's unfortunate.... all i think of is 'If i had N. with me, this would be the answer to all my problems'... i guess the ideation is so much better than reality which often is the case in life
 
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ddutch

Done with life
Oct 28, 2018
396
Congrats

Welcome to the club.
It is a big responsibility when you have it.
So do make the right choice and on the right time.

Take care
 
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