Discussion My N Has Arrived!

[Blackjack]

It's surreal writing this. When I logged on to this site a month ago, I had no idea what this was or what I was doing. Now here I am 30 days later with wisdom, insight, a community, a guardian angel, a plan, the product, and a sense of combined relief (for me) and sadness (for my loved ones) because my suffering is soon to be over.

I still don't have an exact date because I don't have a lot of alone time, so it's gonna be tricky. But because I've made it this far, I know I will figure it out.

My hope is by mid-September. I have a few important issues to tend to for my family between now and then, and it's my son's birthday this Thursday so I don't want it to be too close to that, for obvious reasons.

I will be setting up a donation to SS as part of my financial wrap-up as a token of my appreciation for what this site has given me, and to help fund its ongoing existence for others like me.

I love and appreciate you all, and will never forget you. I'll be hanging around here for the next couple of weeks so no goodbyes yet. The thought of not having to deal with anymore bullshit doctors ever again makes me almost giddy inside. I think I'll use all that extra time to finish chatting with you fine folks. Hit me up anytime here.

P.S. Do y'all think it's OK for me to take a little sip?

xo

 

[Nitromask]

Congrats!
Is your N from A?

 

[Blackjack]

Congrats!
Is your N from A?

PM me.

 

[Dk205]

Can I have some?

 

[GeorgeJL]

Congratulations! You are like the poster child of what this site represents for those that choose to exit life.

 

[apatheticbeing]

First, Congratulations!

I am glad that your plan is progressing well. I had been slowly planning mine too, and since I can't live away from my parents house yet I have many difficulty with the methods I read.

I kind of envy the lot on this site who lives alone.

 

[Blackjack]

Congratulations! You are like the poster child of what this site represents for those that choose to exit life.

Oh wow, what a nice complement. Thank you. I hope I can give some people hope that this site works. I shudder to think where I'd be without it. No more failed starvation, partial hanging & pain pill OD attempts. Oh and sitting in the closed garage for an hour with the engine running. Fingers crossed this is my magic bullet.

First, Congratulations!

I am glad that your plan is progressing well. I had been slowly planning mine too, and since I can't live away from my parents house yet I have many difficulty with the methods I read.

I kind of envy the lot on this site who lives alone.

I too have an audience, I can relate.

Can I have some?

All mine. Contact N.

 

[Emily123]

Happy journey . I wished , I could find a reliable source to get N . If I had it , I would probably used it tonight .

 

[Blackjack]

So, I opened the (extremely adultproof) bottles and had the following thought: this stuff tastes like it should be injected. Which got me wondering:

How did the N process evolve to being drank? I know Dignitas does it that way so we know it's legit, which is fine because I am deathly afraid of needles and would never be able to inject myself. But just wondering if anyone knows the backstory to drinking it?

Not gonna lie, there is nothing good about the taste. antiemetic, dark chocolate bites and a carbonated soda are my thoughts about getting it down successfully.

Any other ideas/suggestions?

Happy journey . I wished , I could find a reliable source to get N . If I had it , I would probably used it tonight .

A is a reliable source.

Congrats!
Is your N from A?

Originally, yes.

Oh wow, what a nice complement. Thank you. I hope I can give some people hope that this site works. I shudder to think where I'd be without it. No more failed starvation, partial hanging & pain pill OD attempts. Oh and sitting in the closed garage for an hour with the engine running. Fingers crossed this is my magic bullet.


I too have an audience, I can relate.


All mine. Contact A.

 

[dysphoria]

So, I opened the (extremely adultproof) bottles and had the following thought: this stuff tastes like it should be injected. Which got me wondering:

How did the N process evolve to being drank? I know Dignitas does it that way so we know it's legit, which is fine because I am deathly afraid of needles and would never be able to inject myself. But just wondering if anyone knows the backstory to drinking it?

Not gonna lie, there is nothing good about the taste. antiemetic, dark chocolate bites and a carbonated soda are my thoughts about getting it down successfully.

Any other ideas/suggestions?


A is a reliable source.


Originally, yes.

Not an expert, but would guess it's because the form it's traditionally been available in has been a dilute liquid, in large bottles like 100mL required for one dose. It could be administered as a drip, but you could roll over while unconscious and dislodge the needle. It doesn't sound like it's greatly soluble in water, and 9-12g is a lot of powder. You'd probably need to use a syringe which is large, making it likely you'll fall asleep before you've injected it all, and you'd also need enough chemistry knowledge to mix a solution and know how to administer IV drugs properly. If you used a solvent like ethanol it would burn when you inject, very painful. Intramuscular injection could be a way to give enough time to get it all in, though. Maybe even rectal, but IV's not really an option, especially with such a large volume. If someone did the injecting for you, it'd work, but that could be a legal nightmare.

Now that powder N is a thing, it still makes sense to drink it. It's a large quantity of drug, and dissolved in a 100mL drink, it gets in you quickly. If there was a way to make that quantity of drug fit in a small syringe, like by using a different solvent, could you really guarantee you'll finish before it puts you to sleep? Drinking at least gives you some final moments to reflect.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

It's surreal writing this. When I logged on to this site a month ago, I had no idea what this was or what I was doing. Now here I am 30 days later with wisdom, insight, a community, a guardian angel, a plan, the product, and a sense of combined relief (for me) and sadness (for my loved ones) because my suffering is soon to be over.

I still don't have an exact date because I don't have a lot of alone time, so it's gonna be tricky. But because I've made it this far, I know I will figure it out.

My hope is by mid-September. I have a few important issues to tend to for my family between now and then, and it's my son's birthday this Thursday so I don't want it to be too close to that, for obvious reasons.

I will be setting up a donation to SS as part of my financial wrap-up as a token of my appreciation for what this site has given me, and to help fund its ongoing existence for others like me.

I love and appreciate you all, and will never forget you. I'll be hanging around here for the next couple of weeks so no goodbyes yet. The thought of not having to deal with anymore bullshit doctors ever again makes me almost giddy inside. I think I'll use all that extra time to finish chatting with you fine folks. Hit me up anytime here.

P.S. Do y'all think it's OK for me to take a little sip?

xo

Congrats... I hope you find peace. As far as taking a sip. I wouldn't open the bottle unless you can store it in the refrigerator. It needs to be refrigerated after it's open. Best of luck to you.

So, I opened the (extremely adultproof) bottles and had the following thought: this stuff tastes like it should be injected. Which got me wondering:

How did the N process evolve to being drank? I know Dignitas does it that way so we know it's legit, which is fine because I am deathly afraid of needles and would never be able to inject myself. But just wondering if anyone knows the backstory to drinking it?

Not gonna lie, there is nothing good about the taste. antiemetic, dark chocolate bites and a carbonated soda are my thoughts about getting it down successfully.

Any other ideas/suggestions?


A is a reliable source.


Originally, yes.

I think the reason it needs to be drank is because it was originally intended for veterinary use. (From what I've read here before) Even though vets inject it in animals. Maybe someone can clarify …. or add to the discussion.
As for the taste, I've seen in the Dignitas videos that they give the patient chocolate after drinking and I'm sure their solution tastes better than the vet kind.
I don't know about carbonated soda. I thought about grape juice or using a flavored water enhancer to mix in. I think orange juice has been mentioned as well.
I've seen others but that is all I can remember.

 

[Mbound]

So, I opened the (extremely adultproof) bottles and had the following thought: this stuff tastes like it should be injected. Which got me wondering:

How did the N process evolve to being drank? I know Dignitas does it that way so we know it's legit, which is fine because I am deathly afraid of needles and would never be able to inject myself. But just wondering if anyone knows the backstory to drinking it?

It is definitely intended to be injected (into animals).
So, as far as I know Dignitas and Exit don't use N from A. They use powder (from where? not sure) and dissolve it in 50ml water. They do say though it still tastes absolutely foul...so yeah, less liquid to drink, but still a pretty awful taste.

And yeah, other users already covered it but injecting would be almost impossible without falling asleep first.

 

[Shamana]

Not an expert, but would guess it's because the form it's traditionally been available in has been a dilute liquid, in large bottles like 100mL required for one dose. It could be administered as a drip, but you could roll over while unconscious and dislodge the needle. It doesn't sound like it's greatly soluble in water, and 9-12g is a lot of powder. You'd probably need to use a syringe which is large, making it likely you'll fall asleep before you've injected it all, and you'd also need enough chemistry knowledge to mix a solution and know how to administer IV drugs properly. If you used a solvent like ethanol it would burn when you inject, very painful. Intramuscular injection could be a way to give enough time to get it all in, though. Maybe even rectal, but IV's not really an option, especially with such a large volume. If someone did the injecting for you, it'd work, but that could be a legal nightmare.

Now that powder N is a thing, it still makes sense to drink it. It's a large quantity of drug, and dissolved in a 100mL drink, it gets in you quickly. If there was a way to make that quantity of drug fit in a small syringe, like by using a different solvent, could you really guarantee you'll finish before it puts you to sleep? Drinking at least gives you some final moments to reflect.

Where do people get powder N from?

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Where do people get powder N from?

The last I saw somewhere on here, people were getting it from China. I don't know how reliable that is.

 

[ballerz24]

Congratulations!

 

[Blackjack]

I'm getting a lot of questions about where I got my N:

A private, guardian angel from here who hadn't used theirs yet, and its expiration date is next month, reached out to me because of their familiarity w/ALS.



Had that miracle not happened, I have also been in communication w/A 5 times this month and had received all payment instructions, etc. I was all ready to proceed and take my chances with him, until my guardian angel stepped in.



My guardian angel originally bought it from A a year ago and it came with the anti-e.

Do not ask me about my guardian angel. If they want to reveal theirself, they will.

It is my time.

Can I have some?

Correction: Contact A for N

Congrats... I hope you find peace. As far as taking a sip. I wouldn't open the bottle unless you can store it in the refrigerator. It needs to be refrigerated after it's open. Best of luck to you.

I can't store it in the refrigerator, I have a family. Is this a problem? I only opened the seal of one bottle, it's stored in my dresser drawer, and I will be drinking it within 30 days. Hope this doesn't mean I already fucked this up. I have no other place to store it.

I think the reason it needs to be drank is because it was originally intended for veterinary use. (From what I've read here before) Even though vets inject it in animals. Maybe someone can clarify …. or add to the discussion.
As for the taste, I've seen in the Dignitas videos that they give the patient chocolate after drinking and I'm sure their solution tastes better than the vet kind.
I don't know about carbonated soda. I thought about grape juice or using a flavored water enhancer to mix in. I think orange juice has been mentioned as well.
I've seen others but that is all I can remember.

 

[Rain]

How can I contact A?

 

[Blackjack]

How can I contact A?

I PM'd you. Use Proton email to contact A.

Not an expert, but would guess it's because the form it's traditionally been available in has been a dilute liquid, in large bottles like 100mL required for one dose. It could be administered as a drip, but you could roll over while unconscious and dislodge the needle. It doesn't sound like it's greatly soluble in water, and 9-12g is a lot of powder. You'd probably need to use a syringe which is large, making it likely you'll fall asleep before you've injected it all, and you'd also need enough chemistry knowledge to mix a solution and know how to administer IV drugs properly. If you used a solvent like ethanol it would burn when you inject, very painful. Intramuscular injection could be a way to give enough time to get it all in, though. Maybe even rectal, but IV's not really an option, especially with such a large volume. If someone did the injecting for you, it'd work, but that could be a legal nightmare.

Now that powder N is a thing, it still makes sense to drink it. It's a large quantity of drug, and dissolved in a 100mL drink, it gets in you quickly. If there was a way to make that quantity of drug fit in a small syringe, like by using a different solvent, could you really guarantee you'll finish before it puts you to sleep? Drinking at least gives you some final moments to reflect.

So interesting dys, thank you.

 

[Xaphous]

Can anyone prove it, I'm being told it's a scam

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

I'm getting a lot of questions about where I got my N:

A private, guardian angel from here who hadn't used theirs yet, and its expiration date is next month, reached out to me because of their familiarity w/ALS.

Congrats on procuring the N, and that guardian angel - whoever they are - is a first class human being.

I will be setting up a donation to SS as part of my financial wrap-up as a token of my appreciation for what this site has given me, and to help fund its ongoing existence for others like me.

That's a very kind gesture, and I concur that SS is a great community.

If I don't get to see your farewell (I tend to visit SS sporadically), then I wish you all the best and sincerely hope you find the peace you're searching for.

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

Congrats to you!

 

[Yaalya]

Congratulations. I hope more members can successfully order N!

 

[Sirius]

So, I opened the (extremely adultproof) bottles and had the following thought: this stuff tastes like it should be injected. Which got me wondering:

How did the N process evolve to being drank? I know Dignitas does it that way so we know it's legit, which is fine because I am deathly afraid of needles and would never be able to inject myself. But just wondering if anyone knows the backstory to drinking it?

Not gonna lie, there is nothing good about the taste. antiemetic, dark chocolate bites and a carbonated soda are my thoughts about getting it down successfully.

Any other ideas/suggestions?


A is a reliable source.


Originally, yes.

OK, it needs to be drunk because the individual NEEDS TO SELF DIRECT HIS/HER euthanasia ! IF Dignitas, or any other entity injected it, it wouldn't be suicide it would be murder. Thats it in a nut shell
As for the taste, N is by its nature BITTER- thus a "bitter pill to swallow". Because most of the world is getting N via illicit means, we have no choice but to get the veterinary potion that is also mixed with preservatives etc- making it even more unpalatable

 

[Shamana]

Can anyone prove it, I'm being told it's a scam

BY whom?

 

[Groovy123]

I PM'd you. Use Proton email to contact A.


So interesting dys, thank you.

Can you PM me info as well?

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I can't store it in the refrigerator, I have a family. Is this a problem? I only opened the seal of one bottle, it's stored in my dresser drawer, and I will be drinking it within 30 days. Hope this doesn't mean I already fucked this up. I have no other place to store it.

I was just going by what I have read on here. Probably in the N Megathread. There is wikibook page on it that I will pm you.
I'm not sure if we are allowed to post the link on the public forum anymore.

 

[Zer031]

I'm a new member, but you say all that i think of the website, it's wonderful. It's like a shelter, before all the people that i meet that don't understand what i'm saying (un my life, or take it like a joke) good wishes.

 

[Kiwi]

What is a guaurdian angel?

Has anyone had any luck procuring this substance in New Zealand?

 

[rp17]

Enjoy!

 

[Throwaway9787]

I'm glad you'll have a peaceful exit.