My mother is pushing me to the end

[searchingforpeace]

My dad is dead and after all I am a mother because of mental illness that I obviously inherited I am alone all the time I am live at my grandma's house by myself because I can't live with her I have trouble walking I get nothing but brief from her today she literally told me her survival is more important than mine she's a narcissist she blocks my number every day I've tried to reason with her it's impossible when I'm in the hospital I get thrived with eviction while my other friend with Miss Mental illness gets visited every day for 6 months. She's evil and my dad was no better it's horrible to wake up and realize your parents never loved you in fact they were always the **** enemy I can't do this **** any more she's torturing my soul