Discussion My mood is more stable when it's low.

[elenaboo25]

I've noticed that my mood is more stable when it's low. I don't have these many ups and downs that I usually have. My mood is low, and that's good. I hope it stays this way for long enough that maybe in 1 or 2 years I can ask for euthanasia. (I live in Switzerland) I know it will be difficult to get approved given my history, but I'll try. Currently, I'm trying to establish a record of me wanting to die consistently over a long time, by mentioning it to my psychiatrist in every session. I've also noticed the only times I've ever been able to do any meaningful therapy work is when my mood is low. Otherwise, the therapy time is used up to fix all the problems caused by my unstable mood. So now I'm convinced I am really meant to feel bad all the time, and there's severe consequences if I don't feel bad. This is not a way to live, and it causes me unbearable suffering every day.