S
sadsamantha
Member
- Dec 6, 2022
- 35
My mom killed herself when I was 4 years old. She was a drug addict in recovery like I am at the time of her death. She had just been released from jail and was living with my grandma. We had all been at a soccer game and my grandma caught mom stealing pills from a stranger's purse. This upset my grandma a lot. She decided that she was going to kick my mom out of her house, but she wanted to wait until she had "cooled off" first. So, after the soccer game, she took my mom back to her house and then went and spent the night with a friend. When she came home the next morning, she found my mom hanging in her basement. I have tried hanging multiple times. I figure if she could go through with it when she had a child who needed her, then I can go through with it when I don't have anybody that needs me. But I back out every single time, even though I don't want to be here. I will never understand.