3ndmym1sery
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- Aug 26, 2023
- 34
if it wasnt for my mom and dad i would have never tried to kill myself, theyre awful at parenting, they literally only had me because my mom had nothing to fucking do she had two sons (10 and 11 years old) and she would just be bored at home all day so she got my dad to impregnate her hoping itll be a girl so she can have a real life doll she can put dresses and shit on. shes told me about how she had to try really hard to get my dad to fuck her that day because he didnt want to, and there i was a year later a baby girl she can feed and bathe and play with, when i became a teenager and stopped being a child and didnt want to be smothered by her she didnt like it. she and my dad drove me to kill myself and this bitch was at the mental hospital crying to some random ass nurse about how she never thought her perfect little girl would go crazy, and the nurse comes to me in the womens ward and tells me my mother "loves" me a lot and has been crying for an hour. these people couldnt even fucking raise me to be a person, all they were able to do is keep me alive by feeding me. im a 20 year old child. i cant work, cant go out, i have zero friends, ive never had a boyfriend, i live every day of my life in my room because i live in a terrible fucking country and i cant go outside by myself because its not safe. and this bitch still wont talking to me like im a fucking baby. she still calls me the stuff she used to call me as a baby, even the tone in which she says it is the same. its fucked up. my dad is fucking insane. nothing he does makes any sense. sometimes hes too nice sometimes hes abusive sometimes he'll make me cry for a day straight, when hes nice i feel so angry inside because i wish you had been this nice to me that day when you did that awful thing to me or that other day when you did that terrible thing to me, you worthless fat piece of shit. as a child i used to like them so much, i had a dream once that they died and i kept crying for like a week straight, i couldnt even tell anyone why i was crying because i was too scared to say it out loud, now all i want is to get the fuck away from these people and never come back. id do it if i could. people who are able to do that i envy them so much.
