WhenTheyCry
Experienced
- Jun 25, 2022
- 270
Oh, you misunderstand. I crossed out the parts where I felt like I didn't have. Socialization, I don't have any friends in real life. Connection and intimacy, I don't have a lover who I can confide in or interact with. Resources, I guess this forum does count as one. Recognition, in real life I'm a jobless title-less loser with no accomplishments. Personal security, I live in America, land of the mass shootings and police brutality. Freedom, which you have a point, I don't have the free choice to end my life painlessly with assistance from a professional. Strength, I believe that I've grown into a weak-willed person due to childhood trauma. Health, which you also got, I try not to let my teeth rot in the rare chance that I live to become old, but I live in America where our healthcare bankrupts us.Some of these things methinks you don't understand that you do need them. As the species homo sapien, you are wired to want socialization. You are on this forum talking to other people and affirming that sense of connection and intimacy that comes with the topic of suicide. You are utilizing resources to talk to us. You desire recognition, which is why you're posting that image. It doesn't help anyone to know that information, so you posting it here is a desire for recognition. If you didn't have the need for personal security, you wouldn't care about what method of suicide you go by. You fear pain and doing it wrong which might leave you permanently disabled, which is why you are utilizing personal safety. You care about freedom because you desire that which our freedoms are being restricted [obtaining pentobarbital, for example, which would be the most painless death available and the one everyone desires]. You also have the desire to be able to kill yourself, which is a freedom in itself yet something that is attempted to be stopped/restricted from every angle possible. You desire strength, which is the ability to have the strength to kill yourself. Here's your actual triangle. You care about your health because you take medication for your mental disorders and you attempted to brush your teeth.
You're socializing on this forum. You have it. Socializing =/= real life friends. The intimacy of discussing suicide is something few people will experience. It's an intimate and heavy topic. You have it here. You connect with people on here through socializing about suicide. Intimacy =/= lover. Recognition =/= irl recognition. You have it here.Oh, you misunderstand. I crossed out the parts where I felt like I didn't have. Socialization, I don't have any friends in real life. Connection and intimacy, I don't have a lover who I can confide in or interact with. Resources, I guess this forum does count as one. Recognition, in real life I'm a jobless title-less loser with no accomplishments. Personal security, I live in America, land of the mass shootings and police brutality. Freedom, which you have a point, I don't have the free choice to end my life painlessly with assistance from a professional. Strength, I believe that I've grown into a weak-willed person due to childhood trauma. Health, which you also got, I try not to let my teeth rot in the rare chance that I live to become old, but I live in America where our healthcare bankrupts us.
Because my brain is wired that way. I wish it wasn't though.Why do you want/need intimacy?
Ah okayBecause my brain is wired that way. I wish it wasn't though.
Truth be told, I answered it in the sense of things I have/don't have rather than the stuff I want/need. If I answered like that, it'd look different.Ah okay
I have no need for these so-called "needs". They don't appeal to me
reproduction (I'm antinatalist and sex is gross)
Love and Belonging (I don't care about love or belonging)
friendship, intimacy, family, sense of connection (I don't want intimacy, family or sense of connection)
Sex sounds good in theory (like porn and stuff), but it sounds disgusting to have in real life (even though I want to try it out of curiosity). Someone else's body part is literally entering yours. That's grossHow do you know that sex is gross if you've never tried it? Also, one can be anti-reproduction/antinatalist and still have sex.
You really, truly don't want someone to love you? You really, truly don't want someone to be friends with? You really don't want someone to be intimate with?
Because my brain is wired that way. I wish it wasn't though.
Sex sounds good in theory (like porn and stuff), but it sounds disgusting to have in real life (even though I want to try it out of curiosity). Someone else's body part is literally entering yours. That's gross
I don't want someone to love me because I don't care about love and that kind of shit. I don't want someone to be intimate with
I wanted to hook up with him lol. I'm not into girls and don't want to have lesbian sexHmm, yeah I guess someone's body part entering another person's is one little tidbit of sex that's kinda hard to get around. Certainly not impossible though. I think lesbians in particular seem to be able to make it work.
Didn't you want your crush to love you and be intimate with?
I wanted to hook up with him lol.