my “luck” is what’s forcing me to be alive

[glowing.purple.aura]

I can no longer take the mental anguish of being here which intensifies every single day. I'm without a doubt ready to let go at any moment but I have no way out.

My entire life has been unlucky with nothing ever working out for me (including past attempts), so there's no use in even trying again until I have a "guaranteed" method (like a gun). Any other attempt would just land me back in the hospital.

 

[tonicer]

A gun isn't automatically a guaranteed method. We humans are pretty robust and can survive with parts of our brains missing. I still think the best way is a really deep drop or even better carbon monoxide.

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

A gun isn't automatically a guaranteed method. We humans are pretty robust and can survive with parts of our brains missing. I still think the best way is a really deep drop or even better carbon monoxide.

I know, that's why I put it in quotes.

 

[tonicer]

I know, that's why I put it in quotes.

Oh, sorry i missed that.