My life wishes. My 2025 wishes. Your wishes?

[RawPremadePizza2]

I want...

• To write songs, full of meaning. Songs that describe my pain, that set me free, that give me hope, that makes others similar to me the tingles, that someone relates to them.
• To step into a theatre, with a live band, with beautiful costumes, and amaze my audience. I like to imagine a person that was invited to a concert and didn't know me previously, or that purchased the tickets on a whim, and they sit....then, when the show begins, they get surprised by my performance. I want to give all of me.
• To be happy. Feel safe. Feel loved and appreciated. I want friends, just 1 or 2, and hang out a lot, eat breakfast together, in a cozy house, where they are always welcome, and eat my homemade foods, full of love and care.
• A husband.
• Being understood, listened.
• Waking up and not having tension and aches all throughout my body, feeling like a person that's about to crash their car into a wall.
• Not getting triggered anymore, getting my complex PTSD in check, not having paranoia anymore, not having catastrophic thoughts anymore, or overthinking, or having to daydreaming to be comforted.
• To feel like suicide is far away, and not an option, because I'm so happy and full of life.

In 2025 I want:
To eat healthily, be fit, strong and flexible
To ignore my triggers and keep going with my life, even when I feel sad and lonely
To let my soul be free and express myself
To find my people
To not treat myself like crap, like the voices in my head, abandoning and neglecting myself
To be present in the moment, practicing meditation
To prevent depressive episodes and test myself kindly if they happen

What are your wishes?

 

[raskol1980]

Man I'm so for from this but I hope you enjoy the journey

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

Man I'm so for from this but I hope you enjoy the journey

Thank you for your reply raskol I wish you the best.
Sometimes I don't even want to leave my bed and disintegrate into nothingness but there's still a little hope...

 

[raskol1980]

I always that heart from people 'on the up' - DO you like to read?

 

[Greyhawk]

I want to give my life another chance, make a genuine effort for recovery and go after my dream. I feel like I've been wallowing in self-pity. Good luck on your journey!

 

[SpamMusubi]

Read more books, I bought a kindle last year but only read 2 books.

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

I always that heart from people 'on the up' - DO you like to read?

I read sometimes!! I like self development books

I want to give my life another chance, make a genuine effort for recovery and go after my dream. I feel like I've been wallowing in self-pity. Good luck on your journey!

Hell yeah! Good luck to you too Greyhawk!! I also feel like I'm drowning in my bad feelings when I'm in a depressive episode, it's hard

Read more books, I bought a kindle last year but only read 2 books.

Good luck spam! I also want to read more this year, even if a few pages more per week, it's okay to begin slowly, before we realize we've been climbing up our streaks

 

[spero_meliora]

If I stick around - I want to read more books, spend more time in nature, and write more music.

I'm joining a local community orchestra in September, which is something I'm looking forward to. Being surrounded by like-minded people helps so much.

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

If I stick around - I want to read more books, spend more time in nature, and write more music.

I'm joining a local community orchestra in September, which is something I'm looking forward to. Being surrounded by like-minded people helps so much.

So cool Spero!!! Let's read more books and write music this year!
Do you mean write lyrics? Or with an instrument? I really want to write lyrics, but it's been hard hehe
Oh being in an orchestra must be so inspiring, being surrounded by so many people and instruments

 

[spero_meliora]

So cool Spero!!! Let's read more books and write music this year!
Do you mean write lyrics? Or with an instrument? I really want to write lyrics, but it's been hard hehe
Oh being in an orchestra must be so inspiring, being surrounded by so many people and instruments

Hell yes! I'd love your answers to your own questions too! For me, I both write lyrics and music, but I'm mainly instrumental and in the more industrial side of music I love sampling sounds and finding ways to chop them up and warp them into beats.

As for the orchestra, I'm a cellist. love how the sound of the cello mimics the human voice.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Gaining new prespectives in life.

Improving my skills.

Making good and practical investments with home, life and career.

Getting in the shape of my life.

Having lots of fun.

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

Hell yes! I'd love your answers to your own questions too! For me, I both write lyrics and music, but I'm mainly instrumental and in the more industrial side of music I love sampling sounds and finding ways to chop them up and warp them into beats.

As for the orchestra, I'm a cellist. love how the sound of the cello mimics the human voice.

I see, the cello's sound is really pretty. I would like to compose music, like, lyrics, and arrangements, but for now I'm just trying to come up with the lyrics, it's hard

Gaining new prespectives in life.

Improving my skills.

Making good and practical investments with home, life and career.

Getting in the shape of my life.

Having lots of fun.

Let's improve and have fun this year!! Good luck mirrory!

 

[spero_meliora]

I would like to compose music, like, lyrics, and arrangements, but for now I'm just trying to come up with the lyrics, it's hard

Believe in yourself and keep practicing! One day you can go back and re-write things with your new skills and knowledge :)

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

Believe in yourself and keep practicing! One day you can go back and re-write things with your new skills and knowledge :)

Yup! Thank you, I will!

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

My goals/wishes for 2025 are:

• Make a couple new friends OR hang out a lot more with my current 3 friends
• Play more games, preferably more with others so that its more fun :D
• Get healthy once again, as it feels amazing to be fit and eat healthy
• Fight my social anxiety by putting more and more pressure under myself (but controllably)
• Calm myself down, especially after 2024
• Reduce my anger, envy, loneliness and sadness
• Stay positive
• Find a summer job (preferably one outside my country or one that pays alright)
• Find a girlfriend or a female friend who's got the same sense of humor as me
• Not waste too much time
• Visit the psychologist way more often

I wish that all of your other wishes also come true this year! Fingers crossed!

 

[kissmegoodbye]

i really hope to get better mentally and to be happier, and to eventually move im with my boyfriend. i want to improve myself a lot to make him happy so he doesnt have to worry about me a lot ,,,

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

My goals/wishes for 2025 are:

• Make a couple new friends OR hang out a lot more with my current 3 friends
• Play more games, preferably more with others so that its more fun :D
• Get healthy once again, as it feels amazing to be fit and eat healthy
• Fight my social anxiety by putting more and more pressure under myself (but controllably)
• Calm myself down, especially after 2024
• Reduce my anger, envy, loneliness and sadness
• Stay positive
• Find a summer job (preferably one outside my country or one that pays alright)
• Find a girlfriend or a female friend who's got the same sense of humor as me
• Not waste too much time
• Visit the psychologist way more often

I wish that all of your other wishes also come true this year! Fingers crossed!

Good luck Galactic warrior!! Staying positive is also my goal, stopping the self-hate. Saying mean things to myself is behind me.

 

[Regen]

You have a great list of wishes! Thank you for sharing!

For me it is a difficult question, because when I set goals for myself I quickly feel under enormous pressure and under this pressure to perform I become very depressed and anxious and suicidal. So I no longer have classic New Year's resolutions.

But if I could wish, I would like to say at the end of the year:

- I'm still alive
- my children and my dog are alive
- I do not have a life-threatening or severely debilitating illness
- I feel more at home in my body again, I feel like I have muscles again and am fitter
- I did not treat my children roughly and I did not pass on my own traumas
- I was able to make good, healthy, adult decisions for myself and my children
- I managed to move to a new apartment
- I managed to give away a very large part of my things in the basement
- I didn't destroy any friendships
- I could stand to meditate more often, I could stand the time with myself
- I have my internet addiction, my food addiction and my relationship addiction under control
- I can still get a pension
- I found someone who will take care of my dog from time to time
- my daughter was admitted to the school she wanted
- the list can (unfortunately?) go on and on

Lots love to you

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

In 2025 - that is happy thoughts and not ctb:

Lose 10kgs
Finish Squid Game 3
Wait for Stranger Things 5
Watch New Anime
Watch 10 Cdramas and 10 Kdramas
Learn some Mandarin
Save money and have up to 1K by the end of summer (have no choice but that's how it will be as I won't get enough anymore to save in my desired time)
Continue my audio diaries
Get my range high up
Walk more and see a progress from not eating much
Listen to my favorite songs and music
CTB date

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

You have a great list of wishes! Thank you for sharing!

For me it is a difficult question, because when I set goals for myself I quickly feel under enormous pressure and under this pressure to perform I become very depressed and anxious and suicidal. So I no longer have classic New Year's resolutions.

But if I could wish, I would like to say at the end of the year:

- I'm still alive
- my children and my dog are alive
- I do not have a life-threatening or severely debilitating illness
- I feel more at home in my body again, I feel like I have muscles again and am fitter
- I did not treat my children roughly and I did not pass on my own traumas
- I was able to make good, healthy, adult decisions for myself and my children
- I managed to move to a new apartment
- I managed to give away a very large part of my things in the basement
- I didn't destroy any friendships
- I could stand to meditate more often, I could stand the time with myself
- I have my internet addiction, my food addiction and my relationship addiction under control
- I can still get a pension
- I found someone who will take care of my dog from time to time
- my daughter was admitted to the school she wanted
- the list can (unfortunately?) go on and on

Lots love to you

Those are good things to look forward to, regen! Wishing you the best

In 2025 - that is happy thoughts and not ctb:

Lose 10kgs
Finish Squid Game 3
Wait for Stranger Things 5
Watch New Anime
Watch 10 Cdramas and 10 Kdramas
Learn some Mandarin
Save money and have up to 1K by the end of summer (have no choice but that's how it will be as I won't get enough anymore to save in my desired time)
Continue my audio diaries
Get my range high up
Walk more and see a progress from not eating much
Listen to my favorite songs and music
CTB date

Good luck idel, I also want to learn some mandarin

 

[Jack_Nimble]

I wish I could feel better and no longer be plagued by depression. I wish I could find a loving in-person community that I could fit into. However I have no hope. Or minimal hope. Even when I do feel better I still wouldn't mind dying cause I know it won't last.

I read sometimes!! I like self development books

Could you make some self development books you've found helpful?

 

[raskol1980]

I read sometimes!! I like self development books

Hell yeah! Good luck to you too Greyhawk!! I also feel like I'm drowning in my bad feelings when I'm in a depressive episode, it's hard

Good luck spam! I also want to read more this year, even if a few pages more per week, it's okay to begin slowly, before we realize we've been climbing up our streaks

In praise of Shadows by Junichiro Tanizaki was a book I thought of from reading your first post. It's very short but, well I found it so, profound. On the surface about how Japan view light AND shadow, they each have power and place. He talks a lot on the surface but there is great depth in the book - which I should add you don't have to work for, If nothing else it's a special book that can be red in an afternoon - unless you're a dyslexic coffee addict with a very short attention span (Hi),

 

[RawPremadePizza2]

I wish I could feel better and no longer be plagued by depression. I wish I could find a loving in-person community that I could fit into. However I have no hope. Or minimal hope. Even when I do feel better I still wouldn't mind dying cause I know it won't last.


Could you make some self development books you've found helpful?

Hi Jack, lately I've been reading the mindful self-compassion workbook, I need to learn that asap hehe, my perfectionism is one of my worst traits so having compassion, kindness and patience for myself is crucial now.

In praise of Shadows by Junichiro Tanizaki was a book I thought of from reading your first post. It's very short but, well I found it so, profound. On the surface about how Japan view light AND shadow, they each have power and place. He talks a lot on the surface but there is great depth in the book - which I should add you don't have to work for, If nothing else it's a special book that can be red in an afternoon - unless you're a dyslexic coffee addict with a very short attention span (Hi),

I didn't know that book, thank you raskol, I'll read it!!! It sounds interesting, anything that I could relate to is welcome haha