OliverTreeLver
Jvnk
- Feb 17, 2023
- 22
I messed up and now I feel like everyone is going to leave me. I am not claiming that it wouldn't be deserved, but it led to me being in a horrid state and considering CTB again. It has been years since the last attempt, and now I feel like I have fallen into my darkest moments. College is around the corner and I am so lost without any guidance. I feel like I don't deserve to feel this way. I have a boyfriend, and a plan for what I want to do. I am invalid with my feelings because I am not in a bad position. I have a rich family and a good college wants me. Why do I still want to CTB? Is there no hope for me?
My boyfriend hasn't texted me all day and it is making me worried. I wonder if he is mad at me. I wonder if he is going to leave me. I tried apologizing but I think it doesn't matter in the long run, he is going to hate me eventually like everyone does. I am just a lost cause. I feel like a husk of nothingness. I need therapy.
My boyfriend hasn't texted me all day and it is making me worried. I wonder if he is mad at me. I wonder if he is going to leave me. I tried apologizing but I think it doesn't matter in the long run, he is going to hate me eventually like everyone does. I am just a lost cause. I feel like a husk of nothingness. I need therapy.