Ardesevent
It’s the end of the line, cowboy
- Feb 2, 2020
- 358
I've cleaned up the majority of my house for the first time in years. I'm not struggling with schoolwork anymore. I've gone out in public multiple times with only a few problems the past couple of days. Besides being unemployed, I don't have a lot of problems anymore. So why am I not happy?
Even though it's still a mess, my life feels like it's going somewhere for once, but I still have no clue where or how to move it forward anymore. I don't know the first thing about getting a job because I slacked in high school, and it'd be humiliating to ask anyone at my age. I still don't have any direction at all.
If this is what I feel like even when everything's better for now, then what's the point of being alive at all? Even if it's for a short time, I've achieved a period in life a lot of people long to have for even a few days. If this is what it feels like, then there's really no reason to be alive, is there?
Even though it's still a mess, my life feels like it's going somewhere for once, but I still have no clue where or how to move it forward anymore. I don't know the first thing about getting a job because I slacked in high school, and it'd be humiliating to ask anyone at my age. I still don't have any direction at all.
If this is what I feel like even when everything's better for now, then what's the point of being alive at all? Even if it's for a short time, I've achieved a period in life a lot of people long to have for even a few days. If this is what it feels like, then there's really no reason to be alive, is there?