Story My last spark.

[EmmaQanbana]

Hey y'all

It's been quite a bit, like 2 days right since my last update in my diary?

Here's a bit of a life update.

I'm moving Sunday, and with this move brings with me a last spark of hope that I can make it, and that I can be happy and that I'll want to live

I'll be in North Carolina with my mom, sisters, and brother and I'm hoping that with where my moms at, I'll be able to not only start my transition but live a better life and work and become a not just a better person, but the person I always wanted to be.

But, unfortunately, I feel like this is all just a rouse. I feel like this is just too good to be true. I feel like it'll all crash and burn.

And if and when that happens. It'll be my time to go. Because if that happens, I'm gonna just be honest, that'll be my last heartbreak, I'm done with the world continuously breaking my heart and giving me false hope.

This is my last reach and who knows, maybe I'll grab something this time

The goal now is to have something done by my Birthday in November, anything, could be a job, could be HRT, literally anything that counts as progress towards living healthier and better.

It's all just a wait and see...

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hope for the best for you. I think new starts can help. I've started over a few times. I made the mistake of letting my old problems and insecurities come with me though. I should have used those opportunities to work on my social fears. But really, each time I just ended up the same old me in a new place. I hope things work out better for you. Good luck.

 

[andreamysk]

Fuel your spark (and protect it from the elements): I hope it grows into a beautiful fire, warming and illuminating you for a long, long time...