My last 48 hours

[tomShackle]

Hello all. The last few weeks have been completely unbearable. I have struggled with mental health and addiction most of my life. Recently I had a major life change and it has caused me to deteriorate entirely. I have made attempts in the past and was discovered. I've wished everyday that my wishes were respected at that time. I have a plan this time that I believe will bring me peace. Tonight I am going to go to work and finish my last shift. Tomorrow I am going to rent a car and get a nice hotel for the evening and am going to go see a movie and get a nice dinner. On Monday morning I am driving to a national park where there is an 800 ft drop and am going to jump. I would prefer to ctb in the hotel but as I have had failed attempts in the past I worry that I will not succeed. I have been in pain for over a decade and it brings me peace knowing that the end is near. I am glad that I found this forum and its resources have proven this is the right decision.

 

[DearAgony]

I'm sorry that you hurt the way you do. I hope you find the peace you seek.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relieved at the thought of being free from this existence, I wish you the best of luck with your plans.

 

[blackwidow]

So brave jumping.. Even the thought terrifies me
.. Such a sad story.. Hugs to you dear stranger

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I'm sorry life is this cruel to you, I'll burn a little candle for you, hoping your soul will find peace and love.

 

[HollowDrop]

Sounds like you have this well planned out, hopefully you will find your way out from here into your peace. I wish you luck.

 

[tomShackle]

I'm sorry that you hurt the way you do. I hope you find the peace you seek.

Thank you.

I'm sorry life is this cruel to you, I'll burn a little candle for you, hoping your soul will find peace and love.

Thank you for your words of kindness.

So brave jumping.. Even the thought terrifies me
.. Such a sad story.. Hugs to you dear stranger

Thank you for your support. It has taken me a lot to overcome the fear of jumping.

Sounds like you have this well planned out, hopefully you will find your way out from here into your peace. I wish you luck.

Thank you. I appreciate your words.

 

[hi-okbye]

according to my calculations, it will take about 7 seconds to complete the fall. i hope you find eternal peace soon and freedom from the cruelties this world has placed on you. i'm so sorry the world treated you like this, may all your hopes come true good luck, you are a very brave soul.

 

[tomShackle]

according to my calculations, it will take about 7 seconds to complete the fall. i hope you find eternal peace soon and freedom from the cruelties this world has placed on you. i'm so sorry the world treated you like this, may all your hopes come true good luck, you are a very brave soul.

Thank you so much for your kind words and support.

 

[Some place nice]

I wish you all the peace in the world for you. goodbye friend.

 

[tomShackle]

I wish you all the peace in the world for you. goodbye friend.

Thank you for the kind words. Take care of yourself.

 

[ipmanwc0]

Good luck! May you find peace

 

[Peaceful Departure]

Good luck Tom! Rooting for you!

 

[tomShackle]

Good luck! May you find peace

Thank you for your kind words and support.

 

[DeepCD]

enjoy the movie, as well as your meal! and if it makes you feel better, imagine us watching movie & eating with you, while comforting you. May you find The bravery within you... but most importantly may you find peace!

 

[tomShackle]

enjoy the movie, as well as your meal! and if it makes you feel better, imagine us watching movie & eating with you, while comforting you. May you find The bravery within you... but most importantly may you find peace!

Thank you so much for your kind words. We will be at the table eating together and watching a movie. This group has helped me come to acceptance.

 

[roseleaf]

good luck <3 wishing you peace

 

[Kurai]

Good luck and wishing you strength and peace

 

[アホペンギン]

I'm sorry life has been so cruel to you. I hope you enjoy your last night and I send you my best wishes, hopefully you can find what you have been searching for.

 

[tiredone]

Wish you find peace.
Save me spot on that bus.
I should not be long.

 

[venomousSSërpent74]

Farewell i hope to see you soon in whatever the end looks like.

 

[kateve]

Sounds like a great plan, wishing you all the best!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and freedom from this horrible world.
Safe travels.

 

[DeepCD]

Thank you so much for your kind words. We will be at the table eating together and watching a movie. This group has helped me come to acceptance.

Assuming this was your last public message on SS ... I am humbly honored. Hope you found what you were searching for.