Help My instability and outbursts are letting my friends and associates down.

[TheLastSacrifice]

There's been a pattern in my life that's been repeating like a broken record. It goes something like this. I open up to people and talk from my heart and people come to think that I'm this great intelligent and empathetic guy. The guy you know with a good head on his shoulders. Then I come to places where I feel that it's appropriate to vent and I tell.the truth about how I feel. Then everyone says something like I thought you were different, I thought you were someone who is good. And every time people withdraw from me basically saying you know you're not who we thought you were. I never promised any of these people I was good. I never insinuated that I didn't have demons in me. I try to tell people there are some really bad things inside me without telling what they are and people say Oh no you're fine. But then I'm honest about what those things are and everyone runs.