Imhopeless
Member
- Jul 24, 2023
- 8
I cant stand to live like this. I know I'm the age where I can take care of the house and clean but its hard to do so with other 3 members a cat and a dog. My room is the only place in this house that doesn't stink or doesn't have some insects living their best life.
Honestly I'm kind of scared venting about it here, idk why but it seems as if I'll post this, someone will somehow tell the social services and they'll come here lol
My home is a mess, both physically and mentally. No one cares about these animals well enough to actually give them proper care, which always makes me so fucking sad because they deserve better and I cant do more for them. I cant remember when was the last time I saw someone clean. My sibling's room is literally filled with trash and I mean literally. No one in the family dares to come inside there besides my own sibling because the smell is foul. I tried to convince them to clean up, tried reasoning that it stinks so bad the stench is on them but it didn't changed anything. There isn't a single room where there aren't any trash laying around. The worst is definitely the kitchen. No one washes the dishes, I tried keeping up with it but I gave up, at this point I've been buying, with the money I earned, instant food and bottled water because it's hard to find a clean glass in here. Since trash are pilling up as well as dried up food in the sink the fucking flies and ants have overpowered the kitchen. I hate going there as the sounds and the look alone make me feel ill. It's the kind of mess you see in the homes of people who passed alone and rotted there for god knows how long. Its really bad and I can't keep up with it. My school life is also failing so I have to choose one, either grades or keeping this place in one piece. Its really tiring. I hate leaving my room as it means getting attacked by all kinds of disgusting smells, trash on the floor that sticks to you and the fucking flies that want to eat you alive
I feel stupid I have to clarify but it's just a vent, idk how but dont contact any social services or god knows who else. I've gotten used to this life and I dont want to be the reason to make this family even more dysfunctional (I know you possibly cant but I have this need to beg)
Honestly I'm kind of scared venting about it here, idk why but it seems as if I'll post this, someone will somehow tell the social services and they'll come here lol
My home is a mess, both physically and mentally. No one cares about these animals well enough to actually give them proper care, which always makes me so fucking sad because they deserve better and I cant do more for them. I cant remember when was the last time I saw someone clean. My sibling's room is literally filled with trash and I mean literally. No one in the family dares to come inside there besides my own sibling because the smell is foul. I tried to convince them to clean up, tried reasoning that it stinks so bad the stench is on them but it didn't changed anything. There isn't a single room where there aren't any trash laying around. The worst is definitely the kitchen. No one washes the dishes, I tried keeping up with it but I gave up, at this point I've been buying, with the money I earned, instant food and bottled water because it's hard to find a clean glass in here. Since trash are pilling up as well as dried up food in the sink the fucking flies and ants have overpowered the kitchen. I hate going there as the sounds and the look alone make me feel ill. It's the kind of mess you see in the homes of people who passed alone and rotted there for god knows how long. Its really bad and I can't keep up with it. My school life is also failing so I have to choose one, either grades or keeping this place in one piece. Its really tiring. I hate leaving my room as it means getting attacked by all kinds of disgusting smells, trash on the floor that sticks to you and the fucking flies that want to eat you alive
I feel stupid I have to clarify but it's just a vent, idk how but dont contact any social services or god knows who else. I've gotten used to this life and I dont want to be the reason to make this family even more dysfunctional (I know you possibly cant but I have this need to beg)
