19andOverdue
Member
- Jun 12, 2022
- 80
I'm new to this forum, Id like to start by expressing how genuinely surprised I am at how empathetic and understanding this community is. There's no pain greater than loneliness. In my opinion it's the closest thing to death you can experience while alive. And Im glad I've found people who finally understand that.
I have been chronically suicidal my entire life. I thought I'd be dead at 12, then 13, then 16, then 18. And with each passing year I grow more and more guilty at the cowardice. The painful memories stack up, and escape becomes impossible. I'm currently at a rock bottom, the third rock bottom this year alone. And with each passing day of doing nothing and speaking to no one, I feel more and more dead. I can't keep this up the rest of my life, my family already has dirt level expectations for me. So I might as well give up, die with some dignity, and maybe cause some emotional damage to those fuckers from highschool. I curse the world
I have been chronically suicidal my entire life. I thought I'd be dead at 12, then 13, then 16, then 18. And with each passing year I grow more and more guilty at the cowardice. The painful memories stack up, and escape becomes impossible. I'm currently at a rock bottom, the third rock bottom this year alone. And with each passing day of doing nothing and speaking to no one, I feel more and more dead. I can't keep this up the rest of my life, my family already has dirt level expectations for me. So I might as well give up, die with some dignity, and maybe cause some emotional damage to those fuckers from highschool. I curse the world