Rue89
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- Feb 10, 2020
- 2,726
There's this ache in my chest, not like the pains I get from anxiety, but duller, a more hollow feeling, and the ache feels deeper, like it's actually coming from my heart. I think it's the feeling of giving up. I'm planning to ctb this week, I'm thinking Thursday. I have occasional anxious moments about it, but I mostly feel calm, resigned to it, relieved that this will all be over, and I'll admit a little sad too. I feel like I've run out of options and I think I've known for a long time that it would end this way. It was only a matter of when. I just hope that I found the right place and it all goes as planned this time.
