Venting My head

[Life_and_Death]

I have so much going on in my head that I wont/cant share with anyone.

I haven't messaged my friends in 2 days and my husband keeps asking what's up....

"make no mistake my personality is who I am, my attitude depends on who you are"
One of, if not, my favorite quote. I have a personality disorder.... Another thing to reinforce my "I'm fucked" feeling. "you aren't you're disorders" uh huh yeah, sure......

 

[Green Destiny]

I can get where you're coming from. I have too much going on in my head I wish I could put it all on mute and not think about anything.

 

[Life_and_Death]

The first time I try to say anything in a few days (not even mental health related. It was about aprons) he interrupts me and I don't even get a sentence in.... Why do I talk at all??

 

[Life_and_Death]

I haven't messaged my friends in 2 days and my husband keeps asking what's up....

Well my friends are asking about me and my husband is still convinced something is wrong (rightfully so). I just have nothing to say. I can't say anything without hating myself so I just.... Stopped talking

 

[Bat 17]

Well my friends are asking about me and my husband is still convinced something is wrong (rightfully so). I just have nothing to say. I can't say anything without hating myself so I just.... Stopped talking

Is there anywhere you can go and get away from it all for a day or two? I know you don't speak to your parents. Anywhere else ?

It might not be helping being in the "pressure cooker" with your husband and others asking you all the time what's going on

 

[Life_and_Death]

Is there anywhere you can go and get away from it all for a day or two? I know you don't speak to your parents. Anywhere else ?

It might not be helping being in the "pressure cooker" with your husband and others asking you all the time what's going on

No, I don't have anyone here (this province) plus that would mean talking to my husband and explaining it to him. I'm kind of hoping to just wait until my therapist appointment at the end of the month and having her help me explain.

 

[ThrownAwayTom]

The first time I try to say anything in a few days (not even mental health related. It was about aprons) he interrupts me and I don't even get a sentence in.... Why do I talk at all??

I feel this so bad - I've not let a word leave my mouth for over a week now, cos the last time I even tried to make conversation in my house I was cut off 4 times before I could finish one sentence and just gave up.

Do you think speaking to your friends would be easier if it was typed or written down?

 

[Life_and_Death]

I feel this so bad - I've not let a word leave my mouth for over a week now, cos the last time I even tried to make conversation in my house I was cut off 4 times before I could finish one sentence and just gave up.

Do you think speaking to your friends would be easier if it was typed or written down?

What you're initially talking about was involving my husband, talking to my friends is fine and online anyway.

I know I can just send my husband a message but finding the right words (+ my disorders) makes it damn near impossible expecially where I'm not 100% sure and still trying to work that out myself.

As for my friends... I'm just not sure what to say/talk about. I'm nothing but problems and have nothing else to talk about it seems.