Breadbfra
Specialist
- Jul 16, 2020
- 374
I am the one with the "super treatment resistant" depression. Covid has completely destroyed my hardly earnt mental health, and I've got so much mental pain I'm starting to realize I'm becoming crazy. Before covid I started to date a girl who lost her mother to depression, and I warned her that I was basically a normal human being, except for some therapies I had to do every 4 or 3.5 months. Then covid made me another person so I know what's the pain I'm causing her, all over again, and her mother's depression lasted three years and her death was only two years ago.
She has shared so much with me about her experience, and she asked me, while she was driving, if she could give an hello to her mother, so we drove to the cemetery.
I've been actually very surprised to see her sharing such an intense moment with me, but I'm thinking she did it because she's been observing me reading obsessively books about suicide. Three days ago she believed I was going to kill me because I wanted to sleep in the bathub and I brought myself a pillow. I think she gave a kind of "emotional" warning of what my suicide could potentially do to her and my family.
What do you think?
She has shared so much with me about her experience, and she asked me, while she was driving, if she could give an hello to her mother, so we drove to the cemetery.
I've been actually very surprised to see her sharing such an intense moment with me, but I'm thinking she did it because she's been observing me reading obsessively books about suicide. Three days ago she believed I was going to kill me because I wanted to sleep in the bathub and I brought myself a pillow. I think she gave a kind of "emotional" warning of what my suicide could potentially do to her and my family.
What do you think?